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so then here's the drama my metaphysics 00:00:00

so then here's the drama my metaphysics let me be perfectly frank with you ah 00:00:04

that there is the central self you could 00:00:11

call it God you can call it anything you 00:00:12

like and it's all of us it's playing all 00:00:18

the parts of all beings whatsoever 00:00:21

everywhere and anywhere and it's playing 00:00:26

the game of hide and seek with itself it 00:00:29

gets lost it gets involved and the 00:00:31

forest out adventures but in the end it 00:00:36

always wakes up and comes back to itself 00:00:38

and when you are ready to wake up you're 00:00:42

gonna wake up and if you're not ready 00:00:44

you're going to stay pretending that 00:00:46

you're just a little poor little me and 00:00:50

since you're all here and engaged in 00:00:54

this sort of inquiry and listening to 00:00:55

this sort of lecture I assume that 00:00:57

you're all on the process of waking up 00:01:00

or else you're teasing yourselves with 00:01:05

some kind of flirtation with waking up 00:01:10

which you're not serious about but I 00:01:13

assume me maybe you are not serious that 00:01:15

sincere that you are ready to wake up so 00:01:21

then when you're in the way of waking up 00:01:23

and finding out who you really are 00:01:25

you meet a character called a guru if 00:01:29

the Hindus say this word the teacher the 00:01:32

awakener and what is the function of a 00:01:34

guru 00:01:35

he's the man who looks at you in the eye 00:01:38

and says [ __ ] come over I know who your 00:01:44

ha 00:01:44

you know you come to the guru and say 00:01:46

sir I have a problem I'm unhappy and I 00:01:50

want to get one up on the universe or I 00:01:51

want to become enlightened 00:01:52

I want spiritual wisdom ah guru looks at 00:01:56

you and says who are you 00:02:00

you know Sri Ramana Maharshi that great 00:02:03

Hindu sage of modern times people used 00:02:06

to come to him and say master who was I 00:02:08

in my last incarnation as if that 00:02:11

mattered and he would say who is asking 00:02:14

the question he look at you and say 00:02:18

basically go right down to you're 00:02:20

looking at me you're looking out and 00:02:22

you're unaware of what's behind your 00:02:24

eyes go back in and find out who you are 00:02:28

where the question comes from why you 00:02:31

ask 00:02:31

and if you've looked at a photograph of 00:02:35

that man I have a gorgeous photograph oh 00:02:38

and you look at those I walk by it every 00:02:40

time I go out of the front door look at 00:02:43

those eyes and the humor little thing 00:02:47

Wow 00:02:48

Oh Shiva 00:02:55

I recognize you 00:02:58

when you come to my door and you say I'm 00:03:01

so-and-so I say haha what a funny way 00:03:04

God has come on today there are all 00:03:12

sorts of tricks across the gurus play 00:03:12

say well we're gonna put you through the mill and the reason they do that is 00:03:20

simply that you won't wake up until you 00:03:30

feel you've paid a price for it in other 00:03:34

words the sense of guilt that one has or 00:03:37

the sense of anxiety is simply the way 00:03:40

one experiences keeping the game of 00:03:43

disguise going on you see that 00:03:50

supposing you say I feel guilty 00:03:53

Christianity makes you feel guilty for 00:03:55

existing that somehow - the very fact 00:04:01

that you exist is on the front you are a 00:04:04

fallen human being I remember as a child 00:04:08

when we went to the services of the 00:04:10

church on Good Friday they gave us each 00:04:12

a colored postcard with Jesus crucified 00:04:17

on and it said underneath this have I 00:04:20

done for thee what doest thou for me you 00:04:25

know you felt often you would nail that 00:04:27

man to the cross because you eat steak 00:04:30

you have crucified Christ because we 00:04:33

kill the ball misra it's the same 00:04:38

mystery 00:04:40

and what are you gonna do about that 00:04:43

this have I done for thee what do is sow 00:04:45

for me you feel awful that you just 00:04:47

exist at all but that sense that sense 00:04:52

of guilt is the veil across the 00:04:59

sanctuary don't shoot down in order to 00:05:06

you know in all mysteries when you're 00:05:08

going to be initiated the somebody's 00:05:10

saying I don't you come in you got to 00:05:14

fulfill this requirement of this 00:05:16

requirement of this requirement of this 00:05:18

requirement then we'll let you in and so 00:05:21

you go you go through the mill why 00:05:21

because this is you're saying to yourself I won't wake up until I feel I 00:05:33

deserve it I won't wake up until I've 00:05:40

made it difficult for me to wake up so 00:05:44

III invent for myself an elaborate 00:05:47

system of delaying my waking up I put 00:05:52

myself through this test in that 00:05:53

Testament I feel it's been sufficiently 00:05:55

arduous then I may at last admit to 00:05:57

myself who I really am and draw aside 00:06:01

the veil and realize that after all when 00:06:06

all is said and done I am that I am 00:06:13

which is the name of God and when it 00:06:22

comes to it that's really rather fun 00:06:23

they say in Zen when you attain Satori 00:06:26

nothing has left you at that moment but 00:06:28

to have a good laugh but naturally all 00:06:34

masters Zen masters yoga masters every 00:06:37

kind of master puts up a barrier and 00:06:43

says to you 00:06:43

you simply plays your own game you know we say anybody who goes to a 00:06:53

psychiatrist ought have his head 00:06:56

examined because you when you go to a 00:07:00

psychiatrist you define yourself as 00:07:03

somebody ought to have his head he done 00:07:03

same way the Zen masters say anybody who studies in or comes to his own master 00:07:10

ought to be given 30 blows with a stick 00:07:16

because he was stupid enough to pose the 00:07:19

question that he had a problem but 00:07:23

you're the problem you put yourself in 00:07:26

the situation so it's a question 00:07:31

fundamentally do you define yourself as 00:07:34

a victim of the world or as the world 00:07:34

you 00:07:47