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well at this point people can go in two 00:00:00
well at this point people can go in two directions there's one class of people 00:00:09
who will say all right let's live the 00:00:14
uncalculated life let's not make any 00:00:17
plans and before you know where they are 00:00:21
they're living a filthy pad and 00:00:25
scrounging around and living on petty 00:00:28
thievery and so on this is the usual 00:00:30
thing this has got into it the wrong way 00:00:30
the first thing to do is just as I said 00:00:36
whether you like it or not and whether you know it or not the relationship 00:00:49
between you and the environment is 00:00:55
always one that is harmonious so in the 00:00:59
same way you are always living the 00:01:01
uncalculated life you have to find out 00:01:03
first of all that you're always doing it 00:01:05
and that what you call your calculations 00:01:09
and the things you did were funny little 00:01:17
rationalizations in other words your ego 00:01:28
has about as much control over what goes 00:01:30
on as a child sitting next to its father 00:01:33
in a car with a plastic steering wheel 00:01:36
that is turning the car the way daddy 00:01:39
drives it because as I pointed out most 00:01:45
of the functions most of the goings on 00:01:47
in you around you the circumstances of 00:01:50
life have nothing to do with your ego at 00:01:52
all and you don't even know why you make 00:01:56
up your mind to do certain things we 00:02:00
know superficially we were few ideas 00:02:03
it's like when you were enter into a 00:02:06
marriage you have really no control over 00:02:09
its outcome in the ordinary sense of ego 00:02:13
control 00:02:15
you've taken a colossal gamble in which 00:02:19
you've involved enormous complexes of 00:02:22
patterns and maybe it'll come out all 00:02:27
right if you don't interfere with it too 00:02:28
much you don't 00:02:33
it's like Oppenheimer said it's 00:02:34
perfectly obvious that the whole world 00:02:35
is going to hell and the only possible 00:02:38
way we might stop that happening is not 00:02:41
to try to prevent it you know all these 00:02:45
wars are started out by people who think 00:02:47
that they're helping someone but it's 00:02:52
going to make things better so when you 00:02:58
begin from the basis not off saying I 00:03:01
should now live the spontaneous and 00:03:04
improvident and non calculating style of 00:03:07
life but realize you've always done that 00:03:13
only you rationalize that you didn't you 00:03:17
always did what you wanted to do 00:03:17
basically only you said sometimes it was my duty but you preferred a conception 00:03:26
of yourself as someone who always does 00:03:33
his duty that flattered you and so you 00:03:39
were still following your own way now 00:03:43
the first thing then is to see that 00:03:45
that's what's happening so that you 00:03:49
don't think well now there is some 00:03:51
special thing I have to do to understand 00:03:54
this harmonious relationship between the 00:03:58
individual in the world because if you 00:04:02
work on it that way you will start from 00:04:05
the presupposition that that 00:04:06
relationship doesn't already exist and 00:04:08
has to be brought into being thing is it 00:04:12
doesn't have to be brought into being 00:04:13
it's there 00:04:15
but now when you see that that so it 00:04:19
obviously starts to make a difference 00:04:19
you do behave in a different way but the behavior the new kind of behavior that 00:04:28
is a result of a transformation is not 00:04:34
forced behavior when you try to imitate 00:04:37
the way a saint behaves you have made a 00:04:41
forced change and you know all forced 00:04:43
behavior is phony it's like someone 00:04:46
saying I love you I love you I love you 00:04:48
when you don't you feel you ought to but 00:04:51
you don't really and there's something 00:04:53
it doesn't ring true well think of the 00:04:59
poor Lord listening to all the prayers 00:05:01
of all those people saying I love you 00:05:04
Jesus and they and he knows they don't 00:05:07
know they're just saying this because 00:05:09
they think they ought to and be very 00:05:14
trying so whenever you do a thing like 00:05:22
that you see you you make a forced 00:05:24
change now if the change is to happen in 00:05:28
the same way that a seed at proper 00:05:30
season breaks open and sends up a chute 00:05:34
it comes from the whole force of life 00:05:40
itself now when you see that without 00:05:43
your having to do anything 00:05:44
see you are living the uncalculated life 00:05:48
and you're only pretending you're 00:05:50
calculating it and arranging it then as 00:05:53
it were you will have a grasp of the 00:05:55
total situation and it will you can 00:05:59
allow it to produce changes in action 00:06:05
which are not forced so this is why 00:06:11
there is always a trend in every kind of 00:06:14
spiritual doctrine which says something 00:06:18
about grace divine grace there must come 00:06:22
about something in you or change which 00:06:24
you can't produce and if you try to 00:06:27
produce it you will be 00:06:28
a victim of spiritual pride but on the 00:06:32
other hand all teachers are universally 00:06:34
saying you've got to make an effort 00:06:36
there's some discipline there is some 00:06:39
something you must do well that's the 00:06:44
only way to get it across the people 00:06:46
that you as a separate effort maker are 00:06:50
a myth our a phantasm because if you 00:06:56
really try to control your mind and only 00:07:01
think the thoughts that you think of 00:07:02
good thoughts to think you will find 00:07:08
that you're going round in a circle 00:07:12
Krishnamurti is awfully good at pointing 00:07:14
this out when he people ask him how do 00:07:17
you meditate he says why do you want to 00:07:19
meditate 00:07:19
why are you concentrating why you saying prayers why do you think you should 00:07:24
believe in God and it always comes up 00:07:30
because I'm just a son of a I mean 00:07:33
I'm up for my own good and this seems to 00:07:35
be the it would be the way so he says 00:07:38
you see you don't have any genuine love 00:07:40
at all it's all fake 00:07:42
and so you have to find first of all 00:07:45
where the genuine love is now you love 00:07:48
you don't you 00:07:48
that's genuine we won't argue about that 00:07:54
then when you start from this I gave a 00:07:58
talk some time ago to room the air force 00:08:03
their camera lab where they make weapons 00:08:09
do all the research and they got a bunch 00:08:12
of us there who were ministers and 00:08:15
philosophers and they had the nerve to 00:08:17
ask us what was our basis for moral 00:08:21
behavior personal moral behavior well I 00:08:26
said my basis for moral behavior is pure 00:08:30
selfishness and I'm talking after all to 00:08:34
realistic people here and I don't think 00:08:36
we need to be sentimental and beat about 00:08:38
the bush through all you're all warriors 00:08:40
and fighters and so on and 00:08:42
you know how rough things are so I'm 00:08:44
going to say to you frankly uh I'm out 00:08:47
for me but of course I don't do it in a 00:08:50
tactless way I don't go around and hit 00:08:53
people over the head and say give me 00:08:54
this give me that I much more subtle I 00:08:57
say good manners and please and how nice 00:09:02
you all are and so on and finally people 00:09:05
feel massage psychologically the state 00:09:08
where they'll give but they're not sits 00:09:12
after that lives and things that bother 00:09:14
me 00:09:15
first one is if I love me what do I want 00:09:23
and for the more Who am I because if I'm 00:09:29
going to be realistic about getting what 00:09:30
I want 00:09:31
I've got to be pretty sure what it is 00:09:33
that's me and what is the sate of desire 00:09:34
in me if I am desire see if I am a 00:09:37
center of desire what's it all for 00:09:40
well I think of all the things I want 00:09:44
what it so turns out that none of them 00:09:47
are me when I say I want dinner I don't 00:09:51
mean I'm going to eat me up if I any 00:09:58
pleasure I can think of is the enjoyment 00:10:02
of something that I hadn't thought of 00:10:03
defining as myself because I like my 00:10:07
sensations 00:10:08
I like what happens to my body when I 00:10:10
take a fine wine and down it but then 00:10:14
what's the difference between my body 00:10:15
and the wine I say I like the wine I 00:10:15
also mean I like me on the wine together the mixture then I don't eat you or a 00:10:24
friend or a lover in the same way as I 00:10:34
drink wine 00:10:34
I live in association and like this but 00:10:40
then I'm loving things that aren't 00:10:41
formally supposed to be me and as I go 00:10:45
into it in other words as I investigate 00:10:47
what I mean by me I find that I can't 00:10:50
put any limits on it 00:10:53
that I cannot experience me without you 00:10:57
or without the other they're inseparable 00:11:02
but you don't find this out until you 00:11:04
investigate it until you really go into 00:11:06
the question what do I want and that's 00:11:10
the most important investigation anyone 00:11:12
can make which I'm going to into in the 00:11:16
next session the question of power and 00:11:20
all these military men you think they're 00:11:23
they think they want power and so I said 00:11:28
to them some very subversive and 00:11:30
undermining things without anybody 00:11:32
knowing it until long after I left 00:11:32