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very basic in our thinking is that we 00:00:00
very basic in our thinking is that we 00:00:03
very basic in our thinking is that we does it say one must live we need to 00:00:03
does it say one must live we need to 00:00:08
does it say one must live we need to survive to go on 00:00:08
survive to go on 00:00:11
survive to go on we need therefore money for food for 00:00:11
we need therefore money for food for 00:00:17
we need therefore money for food for this that knee up we must go on and we 00:00:17
this that knee up we must go on and we 00:00:21
this that knee up we must go on and we know that we're not going to get away 00:00:21
know that we're not going to get away 00:00:25
know that we're not going to get away with it for very long that after a 00:00:25
with it for very long that after a 00:00:31
with it for very long that after a certain number of years we're going to 00:00:31
certain number of years we're going to 00:00:32
certain number of years we're going to die the thing is going to end the thing 00:00:32
die the thing is going to end the thing 00:00:35
die the thing is going to end the thing that we call I is going to be as it is 00:00:35
that we call I is going to be as it is 00:00:39
that we call I is going to be as it is in sleep deep sleep with no dreams but 00:00:39
in sleep deep sleep with no dreams but 00:00:46
in sleep deep sleep with no dreams but that between now and that happening 00:00:46
that between now and that happening 00:00:49
that between now and that happening there may be the most ghastly pains not 00:00:49
there may be the most ghastly pains not 00:00:58
there may be the most ghastly pains not only perhaps the pains of physical 00:00:58
only perhaps the pains of physical 00:00:59
only perhaps the pains of physical disease or being wounded or hurt but the 00:00:59
disease or being wounded or hurt but the 00:01:05
disease or being wounded or hurt but the pains are worrying about our failure of 00:01:05
pains are worrying about our failure of 00:01:09
pains are worrying about our failure of responsibility to people who depend on 00:01:09
responsibility to people who depend on 00:01:11
responsibility to people who depend on us and we suffer other people suffering 00:01:11
us and we suffer other people suffering 00:01:17
us and we suffer other people suffering simply because we're sensitive and have 00:01:17
simply because we're sensitive and have 00:01:19
simply because we're sensitive and have imagination and participate in their 00:01:19
imagination and participate in their 00:01:21
imagination and participate in their sufferings and our adrenaline and our 00:01:21
sufferings and our adrenaline and our 00:01:23
sufferings and our adrenaline and our chemicals respond simply by imagination 00:01:23
chemicals respond simply by imagination 00:01:27
chemicals respond simply by imagination to the sufferings of other people and 00:01:27
to the sufferings of other people and 00:01:29
to the sufferings of other people and what about that 00:01:29
and so we can look at these problems and 00:01:35
and so we can look at these problems and 00:01:38
and so we can look at these problems and say now quite obviously all these 00:01:38
say now quite obviously all these 00:01:43
say now quite obviously all these problems cannot be solved in a physical 00:01:43
problems cannot be solved in a physical 00:01:46
problems cannot be solved in a physical way that is to say we do not expect in 00:01:46
way that is to say we do not expect in 00:01:50
way that is to say we do not expect in our lifetime that medical skill will 00:01:50
our lifetime that medical skill will 00:01:53
our lifetime that medical skill will make us exempt from death we do not 00:01:53
make us exempt from death we do not 00:01:57
make us exempt from death we do not seriously expect that human beings will 00:01:57
seriously expect that human beings will 00:02:00
seriously expect that human beings will all learn to be nice to each other and 00:02:00
all learn to be nice to each other and 00:02:03
all learn to be nice to each other and will refrain from war and horrors of 00:02:03
will refrain from war and horrors of 00:02:06
will refrain from war and horrors of that kind racial prejudice and so on 00:02:06
that kind racial prejudice and so on 00:02:09
that kind racial prejudice and so on we don't seriously expect to find a 00:02:09
we don't seriously expect to find a 00:02:15
we don't seriously expect to find a methods of being protected by taking 00:02:15
methods of being protected by taking 00:02:18
methods of being protected by taking some sort of drug against all possible 00:02:18
some sort of drug against all possible 00:02:21
some sort of drug against all possible disease and pain so therefore we say now 00:02:21
disease and pain so therefore we say now 00:02:27
disease and pain so therefore we say now maybe there's another way around maybe 00:02:27
that instead of solving these problems 00:02:37
that instead of solving these problems 00:02:39
that instead of solving these problems of the technical level we could solve 00:02:39
of the technical level we could solve 00:02:42
of the technical level we could solve them at the psychological spiritual 00:02:42
them at the psychological spiritual 00:02:44
them at the psychological spiritual level by so disciplining ourselves by so 00:02:44
level by so disciplining ourselves by so 00:02:49
level by so disciplining ourselves by so doing something of ourselves that we 00:02:49
doing something of ourselves that we 00:02:52
doing something of ourselves that we wouldn't be afraid of it anymore 00:02:52
wouldn't be afraid of it anymore 00:02:55
wouldn't be afraid of it anymore and so in accord with that motivation we 00:02:55
and so in accord with that motivation we 00:03:00
and so in accord with that motivation we seek out spiritual teachers 00:03:00
seek out spiritual teachers 00:03:03
seek out spiritual teachers psychological teachers does that on the 00:03:03
psychological teachers does that on the 00:03:05
psychological teachers does that on the other could we somehow be made over so 00:03:05
other could we somehow be made over so 00:03:10
other could we somehow be made over so that we don't worry about the quaking 00:03:10
that we don't worry about the quaking 00:03:15
that we don't worry about the quaking mess by a spiritual discipline or 00:03:15
mess by a spiritual discipline or 00:03:20
mess by a spiritual discipline or whatever 00:03:20
and you see if you examine that that 00:03:23
and you see if you examine that that 00:03:29
and you see if you examine that that this wanting to overcome the quaking 00:03:29
this wanting to overcome the quaking 00:03:33
this wanting to overcome the quaking mess and not have it anymore 00:03:33
mess and not have it anymore 00:03:36
mess and not have it anymore that precisely is the quaking mess the 00:03:36
that precisely is the quaking mess the 00:03:45
that precisely is the quaking mess the thing that we object to about ourselves 00:03:45
is precisely what we do about overcoming 00:03:53
is precisely what we do about overcoming 00:03:57
is precisely what we do about overcoming it in other words the activity that we 00:03:57
it in other words the activity that we 00:04:00
it in other words the activity that we employ in overcoming it is the mess that 00:04:00
employ in overcoming it is the mess that 00:04:03
employ in overcoming it is the mess that we objective do you see that and it's 00:04:03
we objective do you see that and it's 00:04:10
we objective do you see that and it's very important to realize that then if 00:04:10
very important to realize that then if 00:04:15
very important to realize that then if you do realize that you raise the 00:04:15
you do realize that you raise the 00:04:17
you do realize that you raise the question then what can I do 00:04:17
what can I do to transform the quaking 00:04:26
what can I do to transform the quaking 00:04:30
what can I do to transform the quaking mass into the state of mind of the true 00:04:30
mass into the state of mind of the true 00:04:33
mass into the state of mind of the true mystic well if you are the quaking mass 00:04:33
mystic well if you are the quaking mass 00:04:35
mystic well if you are the quaking mass there is obviously nothing you can do to 00:04:35
there is obviously nothing you can do to 00:04:39
there is obviously nothing you can do to transform yourself into the state of 00:04:39
transform yourself into the state of 00:04:41
transform yourself into the state of mind which you idealize is that of being 00:04:41
mind which you idealize is that of being 00:04:43
mind which you idealize is that of being the true mystic the christ the saint or 00:04:43
the true mystic the christ the saint or 00:04:45
the true mystic the christ the saint or whatever so you realize that everything 00:04:45
whatever so you realize that everything 00:04:51
whatever so you realize that everything is funny that all your ideals are simply 00:04:51
is funny that all your ideals are simply 00:05:02
is funny that all your ideals are simply manifestations of the quaking mess 00:05:02
manifestations of the quaking mess 00:05:04
manifestations of the quaking mess trying to get away from himself and that 00:05:04
trying to get away from himself and that 00:05:10
trying to get away from himself and that you are put in the position of it is 00:05:10
you are put in the position of it is 00:05:15
you are put in the position of it is absolutely necessary for me to be 00:05:15
absolutely necessary for me to be 00:05:17
absolutely necessary for me to be different from the way I am but there's 00:05:17
different from the way I am but there's 00:05:20
different from the way I am but there's absolutely nothing I can do about it 00:05:20
absolutely nothing I can do about it 00:05:22
absolutely nothing I can do about it because being the way I am I cannot be 00:05:22
because being the way I am I cannot be 00:05:24
because being the way I am I cannot be different from that let's say this but 00:05:24
different from that let's say this but 00:05:31
different from that let's say this but we can put it in different ways I know 00:05:31
we can put it in different ways I know 00:05:33
we can put it in different ways I know that I ought not to be selfish and I 00:05:33
that I ought not to be selfish and I 00:05:37
that I ought not to be selfish and I would very much like to be an unselfish 00:05:37
would very much like to be an unselfish 00:05:39
would very much like to be an unselfish person but the reason why I want to be 00:05:39
person but the reason why I want to be 00:05:42
person but the reason why I want to be an unselfish person is that I am very 00:05:42
an unselfish person is that I am very 00:05:44
an unselfish person is that I am very selfish and would far more love myself 00:05:44
selfish and would far more love myself 00:05:46
selfish and would far more love myself and respect myself if I were on so 00:05:47
and respect myself if I were on so 00:05:50
and respect myself if I were on so missing I know that I ought to love God 00:05:50
missing I know that I ought to love God 00:05:55
missing I know that I ought to love God and whatever and why do you want to love 00:05:55
and whatever and why do you want to love 00:06:01
and whatever and why do you want to love God or because God is the biggest boss 00:06:01
God or because God is the biggest boss 00:06:06
God or because God is the biggest boss and it's best to be on the side of the 00:06:06
and it's best to be on the side of the 00:06:09
and it's best to be on the side of the big battalions that's really why I do it 00:06:09
big battalions that's really why I do it 00:06:14
big battalions that's really why I do it in other words because I'm looking for 00:06:14
in other words because I'm looking for 00:06:16
in other words because I'm looking for the safety of my own spiritual skin so I 00:06:16
the safety of my own spiritual skin so I 00:06:21
the safety of my own spiritual skin so I think out I've got all sophisticated 00:06:21
think out I've got all sophisticated 00:06:23
think out I've got all sophisticated Saints of numbness st. Paul understood 00:06:23
Saints of numbness st. Paul understood 00:06:26
Saints of numbness st. Paul understood it st. Augustine understood it Martin 00:06:26
it st. Augustine understood it Martin 00:06:28
it st. Augustine understood it Martin Luther understood it they didn't know 00:06:28
Luther understood it they didn't know 00:06:29
Luther understood it they didn't know what the hell to do about it 00:06:29
but there was nothing to do 00:06:32
and yet something has to be done 00:06:39
obviously but you realize when you 00:06:46
obviously but you realize when you 00:06:53
obviously but you realize when you really look into yourself there's 00:06:53
really look into yourself there's 00:06:57
really look into yourself there's nothing you can do and this therefore is 00:06:57
nothing you can do and this therefore is 00:07:04
nothing you can do and this therefore is our point of departure that we here 00:07:04
perhaps perhaps not mutually realize 00:07:13
perhaps perhaps not mutually realize 00:07:19
perhaps perhaps not mutually realize there is nothing we can do to be 00:07:19
there is nothing we can do to be 00:07:22
there is nothing we can do to be anything else than what we are to feel 00:07:22
anything else than what we are to feel 00:07:30
anything else than what we are to feel any other way than what we feel at this 00:07:30
any other way than what we feel at this 00:07:32
any other way than what we feel at this month and to be then this quaking mess 00:07:32
month and to be then this quaking mess 00:07:41
month and to be then this quaking mess which has the capacity for the horrors 00:07:41
which has the capacity for the horrors 00:07:46
which has the capacity for the horrors about what life can do to us however 00:07:46
about what life can do to us however 00:07:52
about what life can do to us however this isn't as much of a blind alley or 00:07:52
this isn't as much of a blind alley or 00:07:58
this isn't as much of a blind alley or cooler sack as it sounds because if you 00:07:58
cooler sack as it sounds because if you 00:08:02
cooler sack as it sounds because if you discover a blind alley it tells you 00:08:02
discover a blind alley it tells you 00:08:08
discover a blind alley it tells you something watch the flow of water when 00:08:08
something watch the flow of water when 00:08:12
something watch the flow of water when it crosses over an area of land and you 00:08:12
it crosses over an area of land and you 00:08:17
it crosses over an area of land and you will see that it puts out fingers and 00:08:17
will see that it puts out fingers and 00:08:21
will see that it puts out fingers and some of them stop because they come in 00:08:21
some of them stop because they come in 00:08:25
some of them stop because they come in two blind alleys the water doesn't 00:08:25
two blind alleys the water doesn't 00:08:28
two blind alleys the water doesn't pursue that course 00:08:28
pursue that course 00:08:30
pursue that course it simply Rises and then it finds a way 00:08:30
it simply Rises and then it finds a way 00:08:34
it simply Rises and then it finds a way it can go but it never uses any effort 00:08:34
it can go but it never uses any effort 00:08:43
it can go but it never uses any effort it only uses weight gravity it takes the 00:08:43
it only uses weight gravity it takes the 00:08:48
it only uses weight gravity it takes the line of least resistance and eventually 00:08:48
line of least resistance and eventually 00:08:51
line of least resistance and eventually finds a course now we will do the same 00:08:51
finds a course now we will do the same 00:08:56
finds a course now we will do the same thing only we're ashamed of it 00:08:56
thing only we're ashamed of it 00:09:00
thing only we're ashamed of it but we're going to do it anyhow we think 00:09:00
but we're going to do it anyhow we think 00:09:06
but we're going to do it anyhow we think that when we come to a dead end a blind 00:09:06
that when we come to a dead end a blind 00:09:09
that when we come to a dead end a blind alley oh I failed supposing the water at 00:09:09
alley oh I failed supposing the water at 00:09:17
alley oh I failed supposing the water at each place where a finger of water 00:09:17
each place where a finger of water 00:09:19
each place where a finger of water stretches out over dry ground and 00:09:19
stretches out over dry ground and 00:09:21
stretches out over dry ground and doesn't go any further because the land 00:09:21
doesn't go any further because the land 00:09:24
doesn't go any further because the land is too high the water would have say to 00:09:24
is too high the water would have say to 00:09:27
is too high the water would have say to itself I failed we would save as 00:09:27
itself I failed we would save as 00:09:30
itself I failed we would save as neurotic water just wait and it will 00:09:30
neurotic water just wait and it will 00:09:36
neurotic water just wait and it will find a way now when you find you see 00:09:36
find a way now when you find you see 00:09:43
find a way now when you find you see that this does this predicament that 00:09:43
that this does this predicament that 00:09:45
that this does this predicament that I've been describing to you that there's 00:09:45
I've been describing to you that there's 00:09:49
I've been describing to you that there's no way of transforming yourself to 00:09:49
no way of transforming yourself to 00:09:55
no way of transforming yourself to become this fearless joyous divine being 00:09:55
become this fearless joyous divine being 00:09:59
become this fearless joyous divine being as distinct from the quaking Ness when 00:09:59
as distinct from the quaking Ness when 00:10:02
as distinct from the quaking Ness when he says no way this is not a gloomy 00:10:02
he says no way this is not a gloomy 00:10:13
he says no way this is not a gloomy announcement 00:10:13
it is a very very important 00:10:18
it is a very very important 00:10:21
it is a very very important communication it's telling something 00:10:21
because they like the land is telling 00:10:28
because they like the land is telling 00:10:31
because they like the land is telling the water this isn't the way to go 00:10:31
there's another way try over here so in 00:10:35
there's another way try over here so in 00:10:38
there's another way try over here so in the same way life is telling you that's 00:10:38
the same way life is telling you that's 00:10:41
the same way life is telling you that's not the way to go it's telling you the 00:10:41
not the way to go it's telling you the 00:10:48
not the way to go it's telling you the message underlying this is you cannot 00:10:48
message underlying this is you cannot 00:10:51
message underlying this is you cannot transform yourself is giving you the 00:10:51
transform yourself is giving you the 00:10:56
transform yourself is giving you the message that the you that you imagine to 00:10:56
message that the you that you imagine to 00:11:05
message that the you that you imagine to be capable of transforming yourself 00:11:05
be capable of transforming yourself 00:11:07
be capable of transforming yourself doesn't exist 00:11:07
in other words an ego and I separate 00:11:16
in other words an ego and I separate 00:11:25
in other words an ego and I separate from my emotions my thoughts my feelings 00:11:25
from my emotions my thoughts my feelings 00:11:27
from my emotions my thoughts my feelings my experiences who is supposed to be in 00:11:27
my experiences who is supposed to be in 00:11:30
my experiences who is supposed to be in control often cannot control them 00:11:30
control often cannot control them 00:11:34
control often cannot control them because it isn't there 00:11:34
and as soon as you understand that 00:11:42
and as soon as you understand that 00:11:44
and as soon as you understand that things will be vastly improved now we 00:11:44
things will be vastly improved now we 00:11:51
things will be vastly improved now we can go into this what do you mean by the 00:11:51
can go into this what do you mean by the 00:11:55
can go into this what do you mean by the word I we're going to make some 00:11:55
word I we're going to make some 00:11:59
word I we're going to make some experiments in this on some number of 00:11:59
experiments in this on some number of 00:12:02
experiments in this on some number of different levels but the ordinary way 00:12:02
different levels but the ordinary way 00:12:04
different levels but the ordinary way what do you mean by the word I I myself 00:12:04
what do you mean by the word I I myself 00:12:09
what do you mean by the word I I myself your personality your ego what is it 00:12:09
your personality your ego what is it 00:12:15
your personality your ego what is it well first of all obviously it's your 00:12:15
well first of all obviously it's your 00:12:17
well first of all obviously it's your image of yourself it's composed of what 00:12:17
image of yourself it's composed of what 00:12:25
image of yourself it's composed of what people have told you about yourself who 00:12:25
people have told you about yourself who 00:12:28
people have told you about yourself who you are how they've reacted to you and 00:12:28
you are how they've reacted to you and 00:12:30
you are how they've reacted to you and given you an impression that that's the 00:12:30
given you an impression that that's the 00:12:31
given you an impression that that's the sort of person you are it's all your 00:12:31
sort of person you are it's all your 00:12:35
sort of person you are it's all your education goes into this the style of 00:12:35
education goes into this the style of 00:12:37
education goes into this the style of life you put on and so forth but you but 00:12:37
life you put on and so forth but you but 00:12:41
life you put on and so forth but you but it's an image it's an idea 00:12:41
it's an image it's an idea 00:12:42
it's an image it's an idea it's your thought about yourself and I 00:12:42
it's your thought about yourself and I 00:12:47
it's your thought about yourself and I suppose yourself is in fact not this but 00:12:47
suppose yourself is in fact not this but 00:12:52
suppose yourself is in fact not this but is to begin with your total physical 00:12:52
is to begin with your total physical 00:12:55
is to begin with your total physical organism your psychological organism and 00:12:55
organism your psychological organism and 00:13:01
organism your psychological organism and beyond that an organism doesn't exist as 00:13:01
beyond that an organism doesn't exist as 00:13:07
beyond that an organism doesn't exist as an isolated thing any more than a flower 00:13:07
an isolated thing any more than a flower 00:13:10
an isolated thing any more than a flower exists without a stalk without roots 00:13:10
exists without a stalk without roots 00:13:13
exists without a stalk without roots without earth so in the same way 00:13:13
without earth so in the same way 00:13:15
without earth so in the same way although we're not stopped on the ground 00:13:15
although we're not stopped on the ground 00:13:18
although we're not stopped on the ground we are nevertheless inseparable from a 00:13:18
we are nevertheless inseparable from a 00:13:22
we are nevertheless inseparable from a huge social context of well to begin 00:13:22
huge social context of well to begin 00:13:30
huge social context of well to begin with parents siblings people who work 00:13:30
with parents siblings people who work 00:13:35
with parents siblings people who work for us and everything I mean it's it's 00:13:35
for us and everything I mean it's it's 00:13:37
for us and everything I mean it's it's just impossible to cut ourselves off 00:13:37
just impossible to cut ourselves off 00:13:39
just impossible to cut ourselves off from a social environment and also 00:13:39
from a social environment and also 00:13:42
from a social environment and also furthermore from a natural environment 00:13:42
furthermore from a natural environment 00:13:44
furthermore from a natural environment we are that there's no clear way of 00:13:44
we are that there's no clear way of 00:13:47
we are that there's no clear way of drawing the boundary between this 00:13:47
drawing the boundary between this 00:13:49
drawing the boundary between this organism and everything that surrounds 00:13:49
organism and everything that surrounds 00:13:52
organism and everything that surrounds it and yet the image of ourselves that 00:13:52
it and yet the image of ourselves that 00:13:54
it and yet the image of ourselves that we have 00:13:54
we have 00:13:55
we have does not include all those relationships 00:13:55
our idea of personality of ourselves 00:14:01
our idea of personality of ourselves 00:14:04
our idea of personality of ourselves includes no information whatsoever about 00:14:04
includes no information whatsoever about 00:14:08
includes no information whatsoever about the hypothalamus an organ of the brain 00:14:08
the hypothalamus an organ of the brain 00:14:14
the hypothalamus an organ of the brain the pineal gland really of the way we 00:14:14
the pineal gland really of the way we 00:14:20
the pineal gland really of the way we breathe of how our blood circulates of 00:14:20
breathe of how our blood circulates of 00:14:25
breathe of how our blood circulates of how we manage to form a sentence how we 00:14:25
how we manage to form a sentence how we 00:14:29
how we manage to form a sentence how we manage to be conscious how you open and 00:14:29
manage to be conscious how you open and 00:14:32
manage to be conscious how you open and close your hand the information 00:14:32
close your hand the information 00:14:35
close your hand the information contained in your image of yourself 00:14:35
contained in your image of yourself 00:14:37
contained in your image of yourself contains nothing about all that and 00:14:37
contains nothing about all that and 00:14:40
contains nothing about all that and therefore obviously is an extremely 00:14:40
therefore obviously is an extremely 00:14:43
therefore obviously is an extremely inadequate image but nonetheless we do 00:14:43
inadequate image but nonetheless we do 00:14:47
inadequate image but nonetheless we do think that the image of self refers to 00:14:47
think that the image of self refers to 00:14:52
think that the image of self refers to something because we have the impression 00:14:52
something because we have the impression 00:14:58
something because we have the impression very strongly indeed that I exist and 00:14:58
very strongly indeed that I exist and 00:15:05
very strongly indeed that I exist and this isn't just an idea we think my god 00:15:05
this isn't just an idea we think my god 00:15:08
this isn't just an idea we think my god it's a feeling it's it's really 00:15:08
it's a feeling it's it's really 00:15:12
it's a feeling it's it's really substantially there in the middle of us 00:15:12
and what is it what what do you actually 00:15:16
and what is it what what do you actually 00:15:24
and what is it what what do you actually sense like you know when you're sitting 00:15:24
sense like you know when you're sitting 00:15:26
sense like you know when you're sitting on the floor and you feel the floor is 00:15:26
on the floor and you feel the floor is 00:15:28
on the floor and you feel the floor is there and is real and hard okay what are 00:15:28
there and is real and hard okay what are 00:15:30
there and is real and hard okay what are you sitting on the floor 00:15:30
you sitting on the floor 00:15:32
you sitting on the floor what do you have the sensation of you 00:15:32
what do you have the sensation of you 00:15:34
what do you have the sensation of you know that's you here when you're not 00:15:34
know that's you here when you're not 00:15:38
know that's you here when you're not hitting yourself what is it 00:15:38
well in what part of your body do you 00:15:46
well in what part of your body do you 00:15:49
well in what part of your body do you feel yourself the rely existing we can 00:15:49
feel yourself the rely existing we can 00:15:55
feel yourself the rely existing we can explore this very deeply but I'm going 00:15:55
explore this very deeply but I'm going 00:15:57
explore this very deeply but I'm going to give you a preliminary and 00:15:57
to give you a preliminary and 00:15:58
to give you a preliminary and superficial answer the the sensation 00:15:58
superficial answer the the sensation 00:16:05
superficial answer the the sensation which corresponds to the image of 00:16:05
which corresponds to the image of 00:16:07
which corresponds to the image of ourselves is a chronic muscular tension 00:16:07
which has absolutely no useful function 00:16:15
which has absolutely no useful function 00:16:21
which has absolutely no useful function whatsoever it is when you try say to 00:16:21
whatsoever it is when you try say to 00:16:32
whatsoever it is when you try say to concentrate what do you do when you try 00:16:32
concentrate what do you do when you try 00:16:37
concentrate what do you do when you try to pay attention when I was a little boy 00:16:37
to pay attention when I was a little boy 00:16:42
to pay attention when I was a little boy in school I had sitting next to me 00:16:42
in school I had sitting next to me 00:16:46
in school I had sitting next to me another boy who had great difficulty in 00:16:46
another boy who had great difficulty in 00:16:48
another boy who had great difficulty in reading and as he worked over the 00:16:49
reading and as he worked over the 00:16:59
reading and as he worked over the textbook with it's perfectly piffling 00:16:59
textbook with it's perfectly piffling 00:17:03
textbook with it's perfectly piffling information he groaned and grunted to 00:17:03
information he groaned and grunted to 00:17:08
information he groaned and grunted to try to read to get out the sounds as if 00:17:08
try to read to get out the sounds as if 00:17:10
try to read to get out the sounds as if he were heaving enormous weights with 00:17:10
he were heaving enormous weights with 00:17:14
he were heaving enormous weights with his muscles you know ah run ah ah her on 00:17:14
his enormous weight she was heaving and 00:17:41
his enormous weight she was heaving and 00:17:46
his enormous weight she was heaving and you know the teacher was vaguely 00:17:46
you know the teacher was vaguely 00:17:48
you know the teacher was vaguely impressed that he was trying 00:17:49
you had absolutely another always tying 00:17:54
you had absolutely another always tying 00:17:59
you had absolutely another always tying yourself up into a knot has absolutely 00:17:59
yourself up into a knot has absolutely 00:18:01
yourself up into a knot has absolutely nothing to do with the way your mind 00:18:01
nothing to do with the way your mind 00:18:03
nothing to do with the way your mind works because look if you try to see 00:18:04
works because look if you try to see 00:18:09
works because look if you try to see hard you know look very intense and you 00:18:09
hard you know look very intense and you 00:18:12
hard you know look very intense and you make tight muscles around here and maybe 00:18:12
make tight muscles around here and maybe 00:18:15
make tight muscles around here and maybe you tense your jaws a bit if anything 00:18:15
you tense your jaws a bit if anything 00:18:18
you tense your jaws a bit if anything that will make your vision more fuzzy 00:18:18
because if you want to see something 00:18:22
because if you want to see something 00:18:24
because if you want to see something clearly you must not make an effort you 00:18:24
clearly you must not make an effort you 00:18:27
clearly you must not make an effort you must simply trust your eyes and your 00:18:27
must simply trust your eyes and your 00:18:30
must simply trust your eyes and your nervous system to do their thing so you 00:18:30
nervous system to do their thing so you 00:18:35
nervous system to do their thing so you just look like that I was writing the 00:18:35
just look like that I was writing the 00:18:39
just look like that I was writing the other night and I completely forgot some 00:18:39
other night and I completely forgot some 00:18:41
other night and I completely forgot some of his name but I knew that eventually 00:18:41
of his name but I knew that eventually 00:18:44
of his name but I knew that eventually my memory would produce it and I just 00:18:44
my memory would produce it and I just 00:18:48
my memory would produce it and I just sat for a while and said to my memory 00:18:48
sat for a while and said to my memory 00:18:52
sat for a while and said to my memory you know very well who this person is 00:18:52
you know very well who this person is 00:18:55
you know very well who this person is please give me the answer it's a boy 00:18:55
please give me the answer it's a boy 00:18:59
please give me the answer it's a boy there it was because that's the way 00:18:59
there it was because that's the way 00:19:06
there it was because that's the way nerves work they don't work by forcing 00:19:06
nerves work they don't work by forcing 00:19:09
nerves work they don't work by forcing and yet we've all been brought up to try 00:19:09
and yet we've all been brought up to try 00:19:13
and yet we've all been brought up to try to force our nervous activity our 00:19:13
to force our nervous activity our 00:19:16
to force our nervous activity our concentration our memory our 00:19:16
concentration our memory our 00:19:21
concentration our memory our comprehension and indeed our very love 00:19:21
comprehension and indeed our very love 00:19:26
comprehension and indeed our very love we've tried to force it with muscles men 00:19:26
we've tried to force it with muscles men 00:19:31
we've tried to force it with muscles men will understand me if I say you cannot 00:19:31
will understand me if I say you cannot 00:19:34
will understand me if I say you cannot force by muscular effort yourself to 00:19:34
force by muscular effort yourself to 00:19:36
force by muscular effort yourself to have an erection women will understand 00:19:36
have an erection women will understand 00:19:39
have an erection women will understand me if I say you cannot force yourself 00:19:39
me if I say you cannot force yourself 00:19:42
me if I say you cannot force yourself with muscles to have an orgasm it has to 00:19:42
with muscles to have an orgasm it has to 00:19:46
with muscles to have an orgasm it has to happen and you must trust it to have and 00:19:46
happen and you must trust it to have and 00:19:48
happen and you must trust it to have and there is absolutely nothing you can do 00:19:48
there is absolutely nothing you can do 00:19:51
there is absolutely nothing you can do about it by using your muscles 00:19:51
about it by using your muscles 00:19:53
about it by using your muscles nothing nothing nothing so in precisely 00:19:53
nothing nothing nothing so in precisely 00:19:58
nothing nothing nothing so in precisely the same way 00:19:58
the same way 00:19:59
the same way well let's complete the picture so 00:19:59
well let's complete the picture so 00:20:03
well let's complete the picture so therefore the the notion that we have of 00:20:03
therefore the the notion that we have of 00:20:05
therefore the the notion that we have of ourselves of ego is a compound of an 00:20:05
ourselves of ego is a compound of an 00:20:10
ourselves of ego is a compound of an image of ourselves which does not fit 00:20:10
image of ourselves which does not fit 00:20:12
image of ourselves which does not fit the fact and a sensation of muscular 00:20:12
the fact and a sensation of muscular 00:20:17
the fact and a sensation of muscular straining which is futile so that what 00:20:17
straining which is futile so that what 00:20:22
straining which is futile so that what you conceive to be yourself is the 00:20:22
you conceive to be yourself is the 00:20:23
you conceive to be yourself is the marriage of an illusion and if you do it 00:20:23
so well what are we if that isn't the 00:20:38
so well what are we if that isn't the 00:20:43
so well what are we if that isn't the case well obviously if you want to take 00:20:43
case well obviously if you want to take 00:20:52
case well obviously if you want to take a scientific point of view by that 00:20:52
a scientific point of view by that 00:20:55
a scientific point of view by that mythology then your your organism about 00:20:55
mythology then your your organism about 00:21:00
mythology then your your organism about which we know very little and the 00:21:00
which we know very little and the 00:21:03
which we know very little and the organism as we've seen is inseparable 00:21:03
organism as we've seen is inseparable 00:21:05
organism as we've seen is inseparable from its environment and so you are the 00:21:05
from its environment and so you are the 00:21:09
from its environment and so you are the organism environment in other words you 00:21:09
organism environment in other words you 00:21:11
organism environment in other words you are no less than the universe each one 00:21:11
are no less than the universe each one 00:21:16
are no less than the universe each one of you is the universe expressed in the 00:21:16
of you is the universe expressed in the 00:21:20
of you is the universe expressed in the place which you feel is here and now you 00:21:20
place which you feel is here and now you 00:21:24
place which you feel is here and now you are an aperture through which the 00:21:24
are an aperture through which the 00:21:27
are an aperture through which the universe is looking at itself exploring 00:21:27
universe is looking at itself exploring 00:21:31
universe is looking at itself exploring itself and we're going to go into that 00:21:31
itself and we're going to go into that 00:21:34
itself and we're going to go into that much more deeply 00:21:34
so when you feel that you are a lonely 00:21:39
put upon isolated little stranger 00:21:57
put upon isolated little stranger 00:22:03
put upon isolated little stranger confronting all this see you have an 00:22:03
confronting all this see you have an 00:22:06
confronting all this see you have an illusory feeling because the truth is 00:22:06
illusory feeling because the truth is 00:22:09
illusory feeling because the truth is the reverse you are as our whole works 00:22:09
the reverse you are as our whole works 00:22:15
the reverse you are as our whole works that there is it always was and always 00:22:15
that there is it always was and always 00:22:16
that there is it always was and always has been always will be only just as my 00:22:16
has been always will be only just as my 00:22:23
has been always will be only just as my whole body has a little nerve and here 00:22:23
whole body has a little nerve and here 00:22:28
whole body has a little nerve and here which is exploring in which contributes 00:22:28
which is exploring in which contributes 00:22:30
which is exploring in which contributes to the sense of touch 00:22:30
to the sense of touch 00:22:31
to the sense of touch you are just such a little nerve end for 00:22:31
you are just such a little nerve end for 00:22:34
you are just such a little nerve end for everything that's going on 00:22:34
just as the eyes serve the whole body 00:22:37
just as the eyes serve the whole body 00:22:40
just as the eyes serve the whole body and help it to find its way around so 00:22:40
and help it to find its way around so 00:22:44
and help it to find its way around so you are as it were serving the whole 00:22:44
you are as it were serving the whole 00:22:47
you are as it were serving the whole universe you're a servant and it's 00:22:47
universe you're a servant and it's 00:22:52
universe you're a servant and it's exploring itself so that you as a 00:22:53
exploring itself so that you as a 00:23:01
exploring itself so that you as a function you you are a function of all 00:23:01
function you you are a function of all 00:23:03
function you you are a function of all that and therefore if this is so it just 00:23:03
that and therefore if this is so it just 00:23:07
that and therefore if this is so it just doesn't fit the these facts do not fit 00:23:07
doesn't fit the these facts do not fit 00:23:10
doesn't fit the these facts do not fit the way we feel because we feel it the 00:23:10
the way we feel because we feel it the 00:23:16
the way we feel because we feel it the other way around 00:23:16
other way around 00:23:17
other way around I am a little lonely thing exploring all 00:23:17
I am a little lonely thing exploring all 00:23:19
I am a little lonely thing exploring all this universe and trying to get make 00:23:19
this universe and trying to get make 00:23:21
this universe and trying to get make something out of it get something out of 00:23:21
something out of it get something out of 00:23:22
something out of it get something out of it do something with it and I know I'm 00:23:22
it do something with it and I know I'm 00:23:24
it do something with it and I know I'm going to fail because I know I'm going 00:23:24
going to fail because I know I'm going 00:23:26
going to fail because I know I'm going to die one day so we're all 00:23:26
to die one day so we're all 00:23:29
to die one day so we're all fundamentally depressed I'm think up all 00:23:29
fundamentally depressed I'm think up all 00:23:32
fundamentally depressed I'm think up all these fantasies about what's going to 00:23:32
these fantasies about what's going to 00:23:33
these fantasies about what's going to happen to us when we're dead and all 00:23:33
happen to us when we're dead and all 00:23:35
happen to us when we're dead and all that kind of thing what's going to 00:23:35
that kind of thing what's going to 00:23:39
that kind of thing what's going to happen to you when you're dead what do 00:23:39
happen to you when you're dead what do 00:23:41
happen to you when you're dead what do you mean you if you are basically the 00:23:41
you mean you if you are basically the 00:23:45
you mean you if you are basically the universe that question is irrelevant 00:23:45
universe that question is irrelevant 00:23:48
universe that question is irrelevant you never were born and you never will 00:23:48
you never were born and you never will 00:23:51
you never were born and you never will die because what there is is you and 00:23:51
die because what there is is you and 00:23:59
die because what there is is you and that should be absolutely obvious but it 00:24:00
that should be absolutely obvious but it 00:24:03
that should be absolutely obvious but it is not obvious at all that should be the 00:24:03
is not obvious at all that should be the 00:24:06
is not obvious at all that should be the simplest thing in the world that you VI 00:24:07
simplest thing in the world that you VI 00:24:11
simplest thing in the world that you VI is what has always been going on and 00:24:11
is what has always been going on and 00:24:15
is what has always been going on and always will go on forever and ever 00:24:15
but we have been bamboozled by 00:24:21
religionists by politicians by fathers 00:24:26
religionists by politicians by fathers 00:24:32
religionists by politicians by fathers and mothers by all sorts of people to 00:24:32
and mothers by all sorts of people to 00:24:34
and mothers by all sorts of people to tell us you know knot it and we believed 00:24:34
tell us you know knot it and we believed 00:24:42
tell us you know knot it and we believed it so you see now why if I put it to you 00:24:42
it so you see now why if I put it to you 00:24:49
it so you see now why if I put it to you in this very negative way you can't do 00:24:49
in this very negative way you can't do 00:24:54
in this very negative way you can't do anything to change yourselves to become 00:24:54
anything to change yourselves to become 00:24:56
anything to change yourselves to become better to become happier to become more 00:24:56
better to become happier to become more 00:24:59
better to become happier to become more serene to become mystics or in it if I 00:24:59
serene to become mystics or in it if I 00:25:03
serene to become mystics or in it if I say you can't do a damn thing can you 00:25:03
say you can't do a damn thing can you 00:25:09
say you can't do a damn thing can you understand this negative statement in a 00:25:09
understand this negative statement in a 00:25:11
understand this negative statement in a positive way what I'm really saying is 00:25:11
positive way what I'm really saying is 00:25:15
positive way what I'm really saying is that you don't need 00:25:15
because if you see ourselves in the 00:25:22
because if you see ourselves in the 00:25:25
because if you see ourselves in the correct way you are all as much 00:25:25
correct way you are all as much 00:25:29
correct way you are all as much extraordinary phenomena of nature as 00:25:29
extraordinary phenomena of nature as 00:25:33
extraordinary phenomena of nature as they trees clouds the patterns in 00:25:33
they trees clouds the patterns in 00:25:38
they trees clouds the patterns in running water the shape of fire the 00:25:38
running water the shape of fire the 00:25:41
running water the shape of fire the arrangement of the stars the form of a 00:25:41
arrangement of the stars the form of a 00:25:43
arrangement of the stars the form of a galaxy you are all just like that 00:25:43
there's nothing wrong with you at all 00:25:56
except that I have to add this little 00:26:01
except that I have to add this little 00:26:03
except that I have to add this little flip you you have in you you do think 00:26:03
flip you you have in you you do think 00:26:08
flip you you have in you you do think there's something wrong with you 00:26:08
there's something wrong with you 00:26:09
there's something wrong with you see and there's no question you do we 00:26:09
see and there's no question you do we 00:26:12
see and there's no question you do we all object to ourselves in various ways 00:26:12
all object to ourselves in various ways 00:26:14
all object to ourselves in various ways and I'm going to add there's nothing 00:26:14
and I'm going to add there's nothing 00:26:17
and I'm going to add there's nothing wrong with that either because that's 00:26:17
wrong with that either because that's 00:26:20
wrong with that either because that's part of the flow that's part of what is 00:26:20
part of the flow that's part of what is 00:26:23
part of the flow that's part of what is going on that's part of what we do so I 00:26:23
going on that's part of what we do so I 00:26:29
going on that's part of what we do so I don't you see I'm what I'm actually 00:26:29
don't you see I'm what I'm actually 00:26:32
don't you see I'm what I'm actually going to do is I'm going to be deliver 00:26:32
going to do is I'm going to be deliver 00:26:34
going to do is I'm going to be deliver you from a sense of guilt because I'm 00:26:34
you from a sense of guilt because I'm 00:26:37
you from a sense of guilt because I'm going to teach you that you needn't feel 00:26:37
going to teach you that you needn't feel 00:26:41
going to teach you that you needn't feel guilty because you feel guilty of course 00:26:41
guilty because you feel guilty of course 00:26:49
guilty because you feel guilty of course you feel guilty it's like someone put a 00:26:49
you feel guilty it's like someone put a 00:26:52
you feel guilty it's like someone put a match on you and you feel hot so they 00:26:52
match on you and you feel hot so they 00:26:55
match on you and you feel hot so they taught you as a child to feel guilty and 00:26:55
taught you as a child to feel guilty and 00:26:57
taught you as a child to feel guilty and you feel guilty they say well gosh 00:26:57
you feel guilty they say well gosh 00:26:59
you feel guilty they say well gosh someone comes along as well you 00:26:59
someone comes along as well you 00:27:00
someone comes along as well you shouldn't it's not the point I'm gonna 00:27:00
shouldn't it's not the point I'm gonna 00:27:06
shouldn't it's not the point I'm gonna say not that you shouldn't but did you 00:27:06
say not that you shouldn't but did you 00:27:09
say not that you shouldn't but did you do it don't worry about it and if you 00:27:09
do it don't worry about it and if you 00:27:14
do it don't worry about it and if you want to say further but I can't help 00:27:14
want to say further but I can't help 00:27:16
want to say further but I can't help worrying about it I'm going to say to 00:27:16
worrying about it I'm going to say to 00:27:17
worrying about it I'm going to say to you okay worry about this is the 00:27:17
you okay worry about this is the 00:27:20
you okay worry about this is the principle called in Japanese judo 00:27:20
principle called in Japanese judo 00:27:23
principle called in Japanese judo meaning the gentle way go along with it 00:27:23
meaning the gentle way go along with it 00:27:27
meaning the gentle way go along with it go along with it go along 00:27:27
so therefore this is the beginning of 00:27:36
so therefore this is the beginning of 00:27:38
so therefore this is the beginning of meditation you don't know what you're 00:27:38
meditation you don't know what you're 00:27:41
meditation you don't know what you're supposed to do what can you do well if 00:27:41
supposed to do what can you do well if 00:27:46
supposed to do what can you do well if you don't know what you're supposed to 00:27:46
you don't know what you're supposed to 00:27:47
you don't know what you're supposed to do you watch you simply watch what's 00:27:47
do you watch you simply watch what's 00:27:54
do you watch you simply watch what's going on like say somebody plays music 00:27:54
going on like say somebody plays music 00:28:03
going on like say somebody plays music you listen and you just follow those 00:28:03
you listen and you just follow those 00:28:06
you listen and you just follow those sounds and eventually you understand the 00:28:06
sounds and eventually you understand the 00:28:13
sounds and eventually you understand the pointers of music the point cannot be 00:28:13
pointers of music the point cannot be 00:28:17
pointers of music the point cannot be explained in words because music is not 00:28:17
explained in words because music is not 00:28:19
explained in words because music is not words but after a while in listening to 00:28:19
words but after a while in listening to 00:28:24
words but after a while in listening to any music you will understand the point 00:28:24
any music you will understand the point 00:28:27
any music you will understand the point of it and that point will be the music 00:28:27
of it and that point will be the music 00:28:32
of it and that point will be the music itself so in exactly the same way you 00:28:32
itself so in exactly the same way you 00:28:43
itself so in exactly the same way you can listen to all experiences because 00:28:43
can listen to all experiences because 00:28:45
can listen to all experiences because all experiences whatsoever are 00:28:45
all experiences whatsoever are 00:28:47
all experiences whatsoever are vibrations coming at you well there you 00:28:47
vibrations coming at you well there you 00:28:50
vibrations coming at you well there you are these vibrations as a matter of fact 00:28:50
are these vibrations as a matter of fact 00:28:52
are these vibrations as a matter of fact if you could really feel out what is 00:28:52
if you could really feel out what is 00:28:54
if you could really feel out what is happening what you are aware of as you 00:28:54
happening what you are aware of as you 00:28:57
happening what you are aware of as you were there's everything else is all the 00:28:57
were there's everything else is all the 00:28:59
were there's everything else is all the same it's a very IR vibrations of all 00:28:59
same it's a very IR vibrations of all 00:29:04
same it's a very IR vibrations of all kinds and they're on different bands of 00:29:04
kinds and they're on different bands of 00:29:06
kinds and they're on different bands of the spectrum the sight vibrations 00:29:06
the spectrum the sight vibrations 00:29:09
the spectrum the sight vibrations emotion vibrations touch vibrations 00:29:09
emotion vibrations touch vibrations 00:29:14
emotion vibrations touch vibrations sound vibrations all these things adding 00:29:14
sound vibrations all these things adding 00:29:16
sound vibrations all these things adding together are woven all the different 00:29:16
together are woven all the different 00:29:21
together are woven all the different senses are woven and you get a pattern 00:29:21
senses are woven and you get a pattern 00:29:24
senses are woven and you get a pattern in the weaving and that pattern is the 00:29:24
in the weaving and that pattern is the 00:29:27
in the weaving and that pattern is the picture of what you now feel this thing 00:29:27
picture of what you now feel this thing 00:29:31
picture of what you now feel this thing is going 00:29:31
see now instead of saying what should I 00:29:34
see now instead of saying what should I 00:29:42
see now instead of saying what should I do about it because who knows what to do 00:29:42
do about it because who knows what to do 00:29:44
do about it because who knows what to do about it to know what to do about this 00:29:44
about it to know what to do about this 00:29:48
about it to know what to do about this you would have to know everything and if 00:29:48
you would have to know everything and if 00:29:51
you would have to know everything and if you don't then the only thing that did 00:29:51
you don't then the only thing that did 00:29:54
you don't then the only thing that did at least to begin with to begin with you 00:29:54
at least to begin with to begin with you 00:29:57
at least to begin with to begin with you can do is watch watch what's going on 00:29:57
can do is watch watch what's going on 00:30:03
can do is watch watch what's going on watch not only what's going on on the 00:30:03
watch not only what's going on on the 00:30:06
watch not only what's going on on the outside but also what's going on on the 00:30:06
outside but also what's going on on the 00:30:09
outside but also what's going on on the inside creat your own thoughts your own 00:30:09
inside creat your own thoughts your own 00:30:13
inside creat your own thoughts your own reactions your own emotions about what's 00:30:13
reactions your own emotions about what's 00:30:15
reactions your own emotions about what's going on outside 00:30:15
going on outside 00:30:16
going on outside as if those inside reactions were also 00:30:16
as if those inside reactions were also 00:30:20
as if those inside reactions were also outside things that you're just watching 00:30:20
outside things that you're just watching 00:30:26
outside things that you're just watching and follow simply observe how they go 00:30:26
and follow simply observe how they go 00:30:35
and follow simply observe how they go note now you may say this is difficult I 00:30:35
am bored by watching what is going on 00:30:44
am bored by watching what is going on 00:30:50
am bored by watching what is going on let's say you see you sit quite still 00:30:50
let's say you see you sit quite still 00:30:52
let's say you see you sit quite still and you are simply observing what is 00:30:52
and you are simply observing what is 00:30:56
and you are simply observing what is happening all the sounds outside all the 00:30:56
happening all the sounds outside all the 00:31:03
happening all the sounds outside all the different shapes and lights in front of 00:31:03
different shapes and lights in front of 00:31:06
different shapes and lights in front of your eyes all the feelings on your skin 00:31:06
your eyes all the feelings on your skin 00:31:09
your eyes all the feelings on your skin inside your skin belly rumbles a 00:31:09
inside your skin belly rumbles a 00:31:11
inside your skin belly rumbles a thoughts going on inside your head 00:31:11
thoughts going on inside your head 00:31:13
thoughts going on inside your head chatter chatter chatter I ought to be 00:31:13
chatter chatter chatter I ought to be 00:31:15
chatter chatter chatter I ought to be writing a letter to CERN so I should 00:31:15
writing a letter to CERN so I should 00:31:18
writing a letter to CERN so I should have done this is that all is built 00:31:18
have done this is that all is built 00:31:20
have done this is that all is built going on see you just watch it but then 00:31:20
going on see you just watch it but then 00:31:23
going on see you just watch it but then you say to yourself that this is boring 00:31:23
now watch that too what is it what kind 00:31:27
now watch that too what is it what kind 00:31:32
now watch that too what is it what kind of a funny feeling is it that makes you 00:31:32
of a funny feeling is it that makes you 00:31:34
of a funny feeling is it that makes you say but this is boring where is it 00:31:34
say but this is boring where is it 00:31:37
say but this is boring where is it where do you feel it I should be doing 00:31:37
where do you feel it I should be doing 00:31:40
where do you feel it I should be doing something else instead 00:31:40
what sexy 00:31:43
what sexy 00:31:44
what sexy what part of your body is it in is it in 00:31:44
what part of your body is it in is it in 00:31:47
what part of your body is it in is it in here is it in here is it in the soles of 00:31:47
here is it in here is it in the soles of 00:31:50
here is it in here is it in the soles of your feet where is it bori 00:31:50
your feet where is it bori 00:31:53
your feet where is it bori the feeling of boredom can be very 00:31:53
the feeling of boredom can be very 00:31:54
the feeling of boredom can be very interesting if you try to look it up so 00:31:54
interesting if you try to look it up so 00:31:59
interesting if you try to look it up so you simply watch and everything going on 00:31:59
you simply watch and everything going on 00:32:02
you simply watch and everything going on without attempting to change it in any 00:32:02
without attempting to change it in any 00:32:05
without attempting to change it in any way without judging it without calling 00:32:05
way without judging it without calling 00:32:08
way without judging it without calling it good or bad you watch it that is the 00:32:08
it good or bad you watch it that is the 00:32:12
it good or bad you watch it that is the essential process of meditation 00:32:12