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Buddhism the doctrine this method isn't 00:00:00
Buddhism the doctrine this method isn't 00:00:03
Buddhism the doctrine this method isn't serious as a matter of fact it's wider 00:00:03
serious as a matter of fact it's wider 00:00:10
serious as a matter of fact it's wider the troubles begin when the teaching 00:00:10
the troubles begin when the teaching 00:00:12
the troubles begin when the teaching begins why for the simple reason that 00:00:12
when you attempt to get yourself out of 00:00:17
when you attempt to get yourself out of 00:00:22
when you attempt to get yourself out of the difficulties caused by your own ego 00:00:22
the difficulties caused by your own ego 00:00:24
the difficulties caused by your own ego you're on the wrong track as we say 00:00:24
you're on the wrong track as we say 00:00:28
you're on the wrong track as we say anyone who goes to a psychiatrist ought 00:00:28
anyone who goes to a psychiatrist ought 00:00:30
anyone who goes to a psychiatrist ought to have his head examined and you see 00:00:30
to have his head examined and you see 00:00:37
to have his head examined and you see the many levels of meaning in that 00:00:37
the many levels of meaning in that 00:00:39
the many levels of meaning in that statement so they would say that the 00:00:39
statement so they would say that the 00:00:44
statement so they would say that the study of Zen is like putting legs on a 00:00:44
study of Zen is like putting legs on a 00:00:49
study of Zen is like putting legs on a snake or a beard on a eunuch it is 00:00:49
snake or a beard on a eunuch it is 00:00:53
snake or a beard on a eunuch it is somehow well we would say our arm our 00:00:53
somehow well we would say our arm our 00:00:56
somehow well we would say our arm our metaphor is gilding the lily is doing 00:00:56
metaphor is gilding the lily is doing 00:01:00
metaphor is gilding the lily is doing something unnecessary and by doing it 00:01:00
something unnecessary and by doing it 00:01:02
something unnecessary and by doing it making a mess of everything 00:01:02
making a mess of everything 00:01:03
making a mess of everything because you know lilies are not very 00:01:03
because you know lilies are not very 00:01:05
because you know lilies are not very happy when gilded those legs fine snake 00:01:05
happy when gilded those legs fine snake 00:01:09
happy when gilded those legs fine snake snakes fine legs inconvenient so this is 00:01:09
snakes fine legs inconvenient so this is 00:01:13
snakes fine legs inconvenient so this is that this is the humor in the whole 00:01:13
that this is the humor in the whole 00:01:14
that this is the humor in the whole thing that when you catch yourself doing 00:01:14
thing that when you catch yourself doing 00:01:20
thing that when you catch yourself doing something such as looking all over the 00:01:20
something such as looking all over the 00:01:24
something such as looking all over the house for the spectacles you're wearing 00:01:24
house for the spectacles you're wearing 00:01:28
house for the spectacles you're wearing there's nothing when you find out what 00:01:28
there's nothing when you find out what 00:01:30
there's nothing when you find out what you've done but the laughs and so in the 00:01:30
you've done but the laughs and so in the 00:01:34
you've done but the laughs and so in the same way when you are trying to get 00:01:34
same way when you are trying to get 00:01:37
same way when you are trying to get liberated get yourself liberated from an 00:01:37
liberated get yourself liberated from an 00:01:41
liberated get yourself liberated from an ego which never existed in the first 00:01:41
ego which never existed in the first 00:01:42
ego which never existed in the first place when you discover that that's the 00:01:42
place when you discover that that's the 00:01:47
place when you discover that that's the case there's nothing for you to do but 00:01:47
case there's nothing for you to do but 00:01:49
case there's nothing for you to do but laugh at yourself and the whole of Zen 00:01:49
laugh at yourself and the whole of Zen 00:01:52
laugh at yourself and the whole of Zen is based on this then you see traps you 00:01:52
is based on this then you see traps you 00:01:56
is based on this then you see traps you cunningly enough into going through a 00:01:56
cunningly enough into going through a 00:02:00
cunningly enough into going through a great discipline and boy it's not there 00:02:00
great discipline and boy it's not there 00:02:04
great discipline and boy it's not there the case of somebody coming out and 00:02:04
the case of somebody coming out and 00:02:06
the case of somebody coming out and telling you you come here and this 00:02:06
telling you you come here and this 00:02:08
telling you you come here and this discipline is good for you and you 00:02:08
discipline is good for you and you 00:02:09
discipline is good for you and you better crowd in around here and all take 00:02:09
better crowd in around here and all take 00:02:11
better crowd in around here and all take it 00:02:11
it 00:02:11
it now if you apply for admission to a Zen 00:02:11
now if you apply for admission to a Zen 00:02:14
now if you apply for admission to a Zen school you get thrown out immediately 00:02:14
school you get thrown out immediately 00:02:16
school you get thrown out immediately they don't want you so you have to force 00:02:16
they don't want you so you have to force 00:02:20
they don't want you so you have to force your way in you really have to lay your 00:02:20
your way in you really have to lay your 00:02:23
your way in you really have to lay your head on the block and say I am in 00:02:23
head on the block and say I am in 00:02:27
head on the block and say I am in trouble I firmly desire I sincerely 00:02:27
trouble I firmly desire I sincerely 00:02:32
trouble I firmly desire I sincerely intend I will curse and swear that I do 00:02:32
intend I will curse and swear that I do 00:02:35
intend I will curse and swear that I do indeed want to become a Buddha before 00:02:35
indeed want to become a Buddha before 00:02:37
indeed want to become a Buddha before anything else in the world and unless 00:02:37
anything else in the world and unless 00:02:40
anything else in the world and unless you make that much fuss about it they 00:02:40
you make that much fuss about it they 00:02:42
you make that much fuss about it they will not let you in and then what they 00:02:42
will not let you in and then what they 00:02:45
will not let you in and then what they do is they fix you up with the funniest 00:02:45
do is they fix you up with the funniest 00:02:48
do is they fix you up with the funniest problems there are two that I might 00:02:48
problems there are two that I might 00:02:51
problems there are two that I might illustrate this with one is you have to 00:02:51
illustrate this with one is you have to 00:02:56
illustrate this with one is you have to show the teacher who you really are not 00:02:56
show the teacher who you really are not 00:03:03
show the teacher who you really are not who you've been brought up to be but who 00:03:03
who you've been brought up to be but who 00:03:06
who you've been brought up to be but who you are originally before your father 00:03:06
you are originally before your father 00:03:08
you are originally before your father and mother conceived you that is to say 00:03:08
and mother conceived you that is to say 00:03:11
and mother conceived you that is to say you must perform a completely sincere 00:03:11
you must perform a completely sincere 00:03:14
you must perform a completely sincere and spontaneous act or they will ask you 00:03:14
and spontaneous act or they will ask you 00:03:18
and spontaneous act or they will ask you to hear the sound of one hand even 00:03:18
to hear the sound of one hand even 00:03:21
to hear the sound of one hand even though this is a Chinese proverb which 00:03:21
though this is a Chinese proverb which 00:03:23
though this is a Chinese proverb which says one hand doesn't make a clap so 00:03:23
says one hand doesn't make a clap so 00:03:27
says one hand doesn't make a clap so what is the sound of one hand you know 00:03:27
what is the sound of one hand you know 00:03:32
what is the sound of one hand you know those Rascals what they get away with 00:03:32
those Rascals what they get away with 00:03:36
those Rascals what they get away with but they get away with it you see just 00:03:36
but they get away with it you see just 00:03:39
but they get away with it you see just as the long as to someone ready to be 00:03:39
as the long as to someone ready to be 00:03:41
as the long as to someone ready to be fooled just so long as you will allow 00:03:41
fooled just so long as you will allow 00:03:44
fooled just so long as you will allow yourself to be put down into pretending 00:03:44
yourself to be put down into pretending 00:03:48
yourself to be put down into pretending that you're just poor little mean and 00:03:48
that you're just poor little mean and 00:03:50
that you're just poor little mean and the true this little separate ego has 00:03:50
the true this little separate ego has 00:03:52
the true this little separate ego has all these problems and is disconnected 00:03:52
all these problems and is disconnected 00:03:54
all these problems and is disconnected and it isn't after all the whole 00:03:54
and it isn't after all the whole 00:03:57
and it isn't after all the whole universe and as long as you feel in that 00:03:57
universe and as long as you feel in that 00:04:00
universe and as long as you feel in that way some smart or master can put you 00:04:00
way some smart or master can put you 00:04:02
way some smart or master can put you down and can trap you up by persuading 00:04:02
down and can trap you up by persuading 00:04:05
down and can trap you up by persuading you in some way or other that you 00:04:05
you in some way or other that you 00:04:08
you in some way or other that you haven't made it and you've got to make 00:04:08
haven't made it and you've got to make 00:04:11
haven't made it and you've got to make it you've got to attain that thing 00:04:11
it you've got to attain that thing 00:04:13
it you've got to attain that thing that's your egotism they go through all 00:04:13
that's your egotism they go through all 00:04:17
that's your egotism they go through all this and it's just like someone being 00:04:17
this and it's just like someone being 00:04:20
this and it's just like someone being put in a squirrel cage or set to chasing 00:04:20
put in a squirrel cage or set to chasing 00:04:24
put in a squirrel cage or set to chasing his own tail while trying to catch his 00:04:24
his own tail while trying to catch his 00:04:27
his own tail while trying to catch his own shadow but under the supervision of 00:04:27
own shadow but under the supervision of 00:04:31
own shadow but under the supervision of a teacher who knows just exactly what's 00:04:31
a teacher who knows just exactly what's 00:04:34
a teacher who knows just exactly what's going on the teacher himself has been 00:04:34
going on the teacher himself has been 00:04:37
going on the teacher himself has been through it and he's not like the other 00:04:37
through it and he's not like the other 00:04:41
through it and he's not like the other kind of teacher who is still a student 00:04:41
kind of teacher who is still a student 00:04:44
kind of teacher who is still a student and who is urging his students to keep 00:04:44
and who is urging his students to keep 00:04:49
and who is urging his students to keep on the rat race because he's still on it 00:04:49
on the rat race because he's still on it 00:04:51
on the rat race because he's still on it finally it dawns there you see when you 00:04:51
finally it dawns there you see when you 00:04:55
finally it dawns there you see when you when you persistently do something 00:04:55
when you persistently do something 00:04:57
when you persistently do something absurd eventually you'll have to see it 00:04:57
absurd eventually you'll have to see it 00:05:00
absurd eventually you'll have to see it as Blake says the fool who persists in 00:05:00
as Blake says the fool who persists in 00:05:03
as Blake says the fool who persists in his folly will become wise if but if 00:05:03
his folly will become wise if but if 00:05:06
his folly will become wise if but if you're really consistent about it if you 00:05:06
you're really consistent about it if you 00:05:08
you're really consistent about it if you really go for that foolishness 00:05:08
really go for that foolishness 00:05:11
really go for that foolishness then you will suddenly realize that you 00:05:11
then you will suddenly realize that you 00:05:15
then you will suddenly realize that you have made yourself absolutely absurd 00:05:15
have made yourself absolutely absurd 00:05:17
have made yourself absolutely absurd then there is nothing to do but laugh 00:05:17
then there is nothing to do but laugh 00:05:19
then there is nothing to do but laugh and as for the teacher who trapped you 00:05:19
and as for the teacher who trapped you 00:05:23
and as for the teacher who trapped you into this you were very very grateful to 00:05:23
into this you were very very grateful to 00:05:25
into this you were very very grateful to him but you see that after all he's a 00:05:25
him but you see that after all he's a 00:05:27
him but you see that after all he's a big hoax because here he is in his robes 00:05:27
big hoax because here he is in his robes 00:05:31
big hoax because here he is in his robes and in his dignity and he's just an old 00:05:31
and in his dignity and he's just an old 00:05:35
and in his dignity and he's just an old rice bag who tricked you into this as 00:05:35
rice bag who tricked you into this as 00:05:39
rice bag who tricked you into this as RINs I himself put it one of the great 00:05:39
RINs I himself put it one of the great 00:05:41
RINs I himself put it one of the great Chinese Zen masters it is like using a 00:05:41
Chinese Zen masters it is like using a 00:05:44
Chinese Zen masters it is like using a closed fists and to deceive a child his 00:05:44
closed fists and to deceive a child his 00:05:49
closed fists and to deceive a child his method of teaching is like that as you 00:05:49
method of teaching is like that as you 00:05:51
method of teaching is like that as you know when you've got a child and you've 00:05:51
know when you've got a child and you've 00:05:53
know when you've got a child and you've got a closed fist and you say what have 00:05:53
got a closed fist and you say what have 00:05:56
got a closed fist and you say what have I got here and the child's full of 00:05:56
I got here and the child's full of 00:05:59
I got here and the child's full of excitement so show me 00:05:59
excitement so show me 00:06:01
excitement so show me uh-huh you've got a guest there show me 00:06:01
uh-huh you've got a guest there show me 00:06:06
uh-huh you've got a guest there show me the child tries to pry your hand open 00:06:06
the child tries to pry your hand open 00:06:08
the child tries to pry your hand open and you hide it in every way and the 00:06:08
and you hide it in every way and the 00:06:09
and you hide it in every way and the child gets more more fascinated and 00:06:09
child gets more more fascinated and 00:06:11
child gets more more fascinated and finally in the end nothing well it's all 00:06:11
finally in the end nothing well it's all 00:06:14
finally in the end nothing well it's all like that because you see taking another 00:06:14
like that because you see taking another 00:06:18
like that because you see taking another way what are you holding onto what are 00:06:18
way what are you holding onto what are 00:06:22
way what are you holding onto what are you protecting 00:06:22
you protecting 00:06:23
you protecting what are you anxious about what is it 00:06:23
what are you anxious about what is it 00:06:26
what are you anxious about what is it that you don't want to lose and you 00:06:26
that you don't want to lose and you 00:06:28
that you don't want to lose and you discover eventually that all your 00:06:28
discover eventually that all your 00:06:30
discover eventually that all your defending is defensiveness you know you 00:06:30
defending is defensiveness you know you 00:06:33
defending is defensiveness you know you started defending something you build up 00:06:33
started defending something you build up 00:06:35
started defending something you build up a wall and then you go worried about 00:06:35
a wall and then you go worried about 00:06:37
a wall and then you go worried about whether the wall would stand up so you 00:06:37
whether the wall would stand up so you 00:06:38
whether the wall would stand up so you build another wall around you build 00:06:38
build another wall around you build 00:06:40
build another wall around you build another one round that and really it's a 00:06:40
another one round that and really it's a 00:06:42
another one round that and really it's a sort of onion system in which there's no 00:06:42
sort of onion system in which there's no 00:06:44
sort of onion system in which there's no Center so we are defending our defenses 00:06:44
Center so we are defending our defenses 00:06:48
Center so we are defending our defenses and when that is exposed that's you see 00:06:48
and when that is exposed that's you see 00:06:54
and when that is exposed that's you see all your doing and there wasn't anything 00:06:54
all your doing and there wasn't anything 00:06:56
all your doing and there wasn't anything to defend in the first place nor was 00:06:56
to defend in the first place nor was 00:06:59
to defend in the first place nor was there anything to be attained that you 00:06:59
there anything to be attained that you 00:07:02
there anything to be attained that you didn't already have but you can't find 00:07:02
didn't already have but you can't find 00:07:05
didn't already have but you can't find this out by being told because he 00:07:05
this out by being told because he 00:07:09
this out by being told because he wouldn't believe it you can only find it 00:07:09
wouldn't believe it you can only find it 00:07:13
wouldn't believe it you can only find it out by carrying your supposed 00:07:13
out by carrying your supposed 00:07:19
out by carrying your supposed predicament to its logical conclusion so 00:07:19
predicament to its logical conclusion so 00:07:23
predicament to its logical conclusion so then we take the ego now how on earth 00:07:23
then we take the ego now how on earth 00:07:29
then we take the ego now how on earth are we to show that the ego is an 00:07:29
are we to show that the ego is an 00:07:35
are we to show that the ego is an abstraction to someone who firmly 00:07:35
abstraction to someone who firmly 00:07:38
abstraction to someone who firmly believes that that's himself well the 00:07:38
believes that that's himself well the 00:07:41
believes that that's himself well the only thing to do is to challenge it so 00:07:41
only thing to do is to challenge it so 00:07:44
only thing to do is to challenge it so when the problem is put before a Zen 00:07:44
when the problem is put before a Zen 00:07:49
when the problem is put before a Zen novice be sincere show me your true self 00:07:49
novice be sincere show me your true self 00:07:53
novice be sincere show me your true self he works like anything at it but the 00:07:53
he works like anything at it but the 00:08:00
he works like anything at it but the circumstances under which this occurs 00:08:00
circumstances under which this occurs 00:08:01
circumstances under which this occurs are such as to make it practically 00:08:01
are such as to make it practically 00:08:04
are such as to make it practically impossible for him to do it if you 00:08:04
impossible for him to do it if you 00:08:10
impossible for him to do it if you understand this posing you go and 00:08:10
understand this posing you go and 00:08:12
understand this posing you go and confront the teacher and you go through 00:08:12
confront the teacher and you go through 00:08:15
confront the teacher and you go through certain kind of formal salutation like a 00:08:15
certain kind of formal salutation like a 00:08:18
certain kind of formal salutation like a ritual and then it's a certain minute 00:08:18
ritual and then it's a certain minute 00:08:21
ritual and then it's a certain minute you have to do something completely 00:08:21
you have to do something completely 00:08:22
you have to do something completely spontaneous and unpremeditated how can 00:08:22
spontaneous and unpremeditated how can 00:08:27
spontaneous and unpremeditated how can you do that because here's the teacher 00:08:27
you do that because here's the teacher 00:08:29
you do that because here's the teacher sitting looking at you like this waiting 00:08:29
sitting looking at you like this waiting 00:08:32
sitting looking at you like this waiting for you to do it 00:08:32
for you to do it 00:08:34
for you to do it show me you he's looking right at you 00:08:34
show me you he's looking right at you 00:08:37
show me you he's looking right at you and you think he sees right through me 00:08:38
and you think he sees right through me 00:08:43
and you think he sees right through me and any kind of little guilt you have or 00:08:43
and any kind of little guilt you have or 00:08:46
and any kind of little guilt you have or any kind of thing like that 00:08:46
any kind of thing like that 00:08:47
any kind of thing like that you feel that he is looking right at it 00:08:47
you feel that he is looking right at it 00:08:49
you feel that he is looking right at it and just like a very skillful swordsman 00:08:49
and just like a very skillful swordsman 00:08:53
and just like a very skillful swordsman if you think before you thrust he's 00:08:53
if you think before you thrust he's 00:08:57
if you think before you thrust he's caught you because he's caught you 00:08:57
caught you because he's caught you 00:08:59
caught you because he's caught you thinking 00:08:59
thinking 00:09:00
thinking you have to thrust before you think then 00:09:00
you have to thrust before you think then 00:09:04
you have to thrust before you think then you want then you'll surprise him but 00:09:04
you want then you'll surprise him but 00:09:07
you want then you'll surprise him but the moment is a little waiver of 00:09:07
the moment is a little waiver of 00:09:08
the moment is a little waiver of intention before the act is too late 00:09:08
intention before the act is too late 00:09:11
intention before the act is too late he's read it read your mind so you 00:09:11
he's read it read your mind so you 00:09:14
he's read it read your mind so you mustn't have any thoughts and then he 00:09:14
mustn't have any thoughts and then he 00:09:15
mustn't have any thoughts and then he won't read your mind it's like when you 00:09:15
won't read your mind it's like when you 00:09:17
won't read your mind it's like when you want to go on the wagon for goodness 00:09:17
want to go on the wagon for goodness 00:09:20
want to go on the wagon for goodness sake don't make a resolution I'm going 00:09:20
sake don't make a resolution I'm going 00:09:23
sake don't make a resolution I'm going on the wagon this year because then you 00:09:23
on the wagon this year because then you 00:09:26
on the wagon this year because then you published to the devil your intention 00:09:26
published to the devil your intention 00:09:29
published to the devil your intention never let him know see the same way if 00:09:29
never let him know see the same way if 00:09:38
never let him know see the same way if you're when allowed sir this is a story 00:09:38
you're when allowed sir this is a story 00:09:41
you're when allowed sir this is a story that drawings are invented and has a 00:09:41
that drawings are invented and has a 00:09:43
that drawings are invented and has a certain typical humor to it it loud sir 00:09:43
certain typical humor to it it loud sir 00:09:46
certain typical humor to it it loud sir is supposed to have had a discussion 00:09:46
is supposed to have had a discussion 00:09:47
is supposed to have had a discussion with Confucius on the nature of love and 00:09:47
with Confucius on the nature of love and 00:09:51
with Confucius on the nature of love and benevolence and when Confucius has given 00:09:51
benevolence and when Confucius has given 00:09:56
benevolence and when Confucius has given for several pomposity is about personal 00:09:56
for several pomposity is about personal 00:09:58
for several pomposity is about personal loud sir is alleged to have said to him 00:09:58
loud sir is alleged to have said to him 00:10:00
loud sir is alleged to have said to him what stuff surely you're getting rid of 00:10:00
what stuff surely you're getting rid of 00:10:05
what stuff surely you're getting rid of self is a positive manifestation of self 00:10:05
self is a positive manifestation of self 00:10:09
self is a positive manifestation of self you are like people beating drums and 00:10:09
you are like people beating drums and 00:10:13
you are like people beating drums and such a huge ative or we would say are 00:10:13
such a huge ative or we would say are 00:10:18
such a huge ative or we would say are the police driving off to raid a 00:10:18
the police driving off to raid a 00:10:21
the police driving off to raid a nightclub with their sirens on that 00:10:21
nightclub with their sirens on that 00:10:24
nightclub with their sirens on that announces that they're coming you see so 00:10:24
announces that they're coming you see so 00:10:27
announces that they're coming you see so we in order to surprise yourself you 00:10:27
we in order to surprise yourself you 00:10:31
we in order to surprise yourself you mustn't know what you're gonna do well 00:10:31
mustn't know what you're gonna do well 00:10:33
mustn't know what you're gonna do well how can you do that it's the paradox 00:10:33
how can you do that it's the paradox 00:10:35
how can you do that it's the paradox which the Hindus expressed by saying if 00:10:35
which the Hindus expressed by saying if 00:10:40
which the Hindus expressed by saying if you think of a monkey while you're 00:10:40
you think of a monkey while you're 00:10:42
you think of a monkey while you're taking medicine the medicine won't work 00:10:42
taking medicine the medicine won't work 00:10:44
taking medicine the medicine won't work therefore try not to think of a 00:10:44
therefore try not to think of a 00:10:46
therefore try not to think of a while taking medicine so how are you 00:10:46
while taking medicine so how are you 00:10:58
while taking medicine so how are you gonna surprise yourself see we got back 00:10:58
gonna surprise yourself see we got back 00:11:00
gonna surprise yourself see we got back to that thing we were talking about this 00:11:00
to that thing we were talking about this 00:11:01
to that thing we were talking about this morning that button will the word 00:11:01
morning that button will the word 00:11:02
morning that button will the word surprise on it and if you're god do you 00:11:02
surprise on it and if you're god do you 00:11:05
surprise on it and if you're god do you know what the surprise is how can you 00:11:05
know what the surprise is how can you 00:11:07
know what the surprise is how can you not the problem for God as well as for 00:11:07
not the problem for God as well as for 00:11:11
not the problem for God as well as for us how do you surprise yourself that's 00:11:11
us how do you surprise yourself that's 00:11:14
us how do you surprise yourself that's what you've got to do if you're going to 00:11:14
what you've got to do if you're going to 00:11:18
what you've got to do if you're going to be spontaneous see your action has to be 00:11:18
be spontaneous see your action has to be 00:11:21
be spontaneous see your action has to be a surprise to you like having hiccups 00:11:21
a surprise to you like having hiccups 00:11:23
a surprise to you like having hiccups but you how how are you going to arrange 00:11:23
but you how how are you going to arrange 00:11:25
but you how how are you going to arrange for yourself to do something surprise so 00:11:25
for yourself to do something surprise so 00:11:30
for yourself to do something surprise so you really work at that and you work and 00:11:30
you really work at that and you work and 00:11:33
you really work at that and you work and you work and you work and the teacher 00:11:33
you work and you work and the teacher 00:11:35
you work and you work and the teacher rejects all your efforts even some of 00:11:35
rejects all your efforts even some of 00:11:38
rejects all your efforts even some of your fairly good efforts get rejected 00:11:38
your fairly good efforts get rejected 00:11:39
your fairly good efforts get rejected because he's building up with you a 00:11:39
because he's building up with you a 00:11:42
because he's building up with you a fabulous frustration he is making you 00:11:42
fabulous frustration he is making you 00:11:45
fabulous frustration he is making you feel that this task is like looking for 00:11:45
feel that this task is like looking for 00:11:47
feel that this task is like looking for a needle in a haystack to discourage you 00:11:47
a needle in a haystack to discourage you 00:11:50
a needle in a haystack to discourage you in every possible way and yet at the 00:11:50
in every possible way and yet at the 00:11:53
in every possible way and yet at the same time lead you on by saying well 00:11:53
same time lead you on by saying well 00:11:59
same time lead you on by saying well you've got to work at it in the past 00:11:59
you've got to work at it in the past 00:12:01
you've got to work at it in the past there were all those famous students who 00:12:01
there were all those famous students who 00:12:02
there were all those famous students who went before and they sweated blood to 00:12:02
went before and they sweated blood to 00:12:05
went before and they sweated blood to find this out they were ready to give 00:12:05
find this out they were ready to give 00:12:07
find this out they were ready to give their lives to hear the sound of one 00:12:07
their lives to hear the sound of one 00:12:08
their lives to hear the sound of one hand you can't expect to get anywhere 00:12:08
hand you can't expect to get anywhere 00:12:12
hand you can't expect to get anywhere near them unless you redouble your 00:12:12
near them unless you redouble your 00:12:14
near them unless you redouble your efforts you see this is the come on a 00:12:14
efforts you see this is the come on a 00:12:17
efforts you see this is the come on a sales pitch so finally you get to a 00:12:17
sales pitch so finally you get to a 00:12:22
sales pitch so finally you get to a point where you understand and see 00:12:22
point where you understand and see 00:12:25
point where you understand and see perfectly clearly that there's nothing 00:12:25
perfectly clearly that there's nothing 00:12:26
perfectly clearly that there's nothing you can do about it nothing at all but 00:12:26
you can do about it nothing at all but 00:12:30
you can do about it nothing at all but there are where I because as if there's 00:12:30
there are where I because as if there's 00:12:34
there are where I because as if there's nothing you can do about it then 00:12:34
nothing you can do about it then 00:12:36
nothing you can do about it then nothing's gonna happen you mean you're 00:12:36
nothing's gonna happen you mean you're 00:12:38
nothing's gonna happen you mean you're gonna sit around and wait for the grace 00:12:38
gonna sit around and wait for the grace 00:12:41
gonna sit around and wait for the grace of God maybe it will get you one day and 00:12:41
of God maybe it will get you one day and 00:12:44
of God maybe it will get you one day and you say well I'll just go along and do 00:12:44
you say well I'll just go along and do 00:12:48
you say well I'll just go along and do my daily work it's nothing I can do and 00:12:48
my daily work it's nothing I can do and 00:12:52
my daily work it's nothing I can do and if you indicate to the teacher that that 00:12:52
if you indicate to the teacher that that 00:12:55
if you indicate to the teacher that that is your attitude he's got another 00:12:55
is your attitude he's got another 00:12:59
is your attitude he's got another to throw at you which is that this 00:12:59
to throw at you which is that this 00:13:04
to throw at you which is that this giving up is still a contrivance is 00:13:04
giving up is still a contrivance is 00:13:08
giving up is still a contrivance is still doing something so there's nothing 00:13:08
still doing something so there's nothing 00:13:11
still doing something so there's nothing in it so far as the transformation of 00:13:11
in it so far as the transformation of 00:13:14
in it so far as the transformation of the ego is concerned there is nothing 00:13:14
the ego is concerned there is nothing 00:13:17
the ego is concerned there is nothing you can do about it 00:13:17
you can do about it 00:13:18
you can do about it also there's nothing you cannot do about 00:13:18
also there's nothing you cannot do about 00:13:21
also there's nothing you cannot do about it 00:13:21
it 00:13:22
it you find you cannot abandon this quest 00:13:22
you find you cannot abandon this quest 00:13:25
you find you cannot abandon this quest once it's excited you and just go off 00:13:25
once it's excited you and just go off 00:13:29
once it's excited you and just go off and be an ordinary Philistine type 00:13:29
and be an ordinary Philistine type 00:13:31
and be an ordinary Philistine type person because if you do that that too 00:13:31
person because if you do that that too 00:13:35
person because if you do that that too will be phony 00:13:35
will be phony 00:13:36
will be phony so you're left in this frantic dilemma 00:13:36
so you're left in this frantic dilemma 00:13:39
so you're left in this frantic dilemma there's nothing I can do and there's 00:13:39
there's nothing I can do and there's 00:13:41
there's nothing I can do and there's nothing I could not do but you see you 00:13:41
nothing I could not do but you see you 00:13:45
nothing I could not do but you see you eventually get to the meaning of that 00:13:45
eventually get to the meaning of that 00:13:47
eventually get to the meaning of that situation what does it mean that I'm in 00:13:47
situation what does it mean that I'm in 00:13:49
situation what does it mean that I'm in this situation it means that the I which 00:13:49
this situation it means that the I which 00:13:52
this situation it means that the I which I thought I was since it can neither do 00:13:52
I thought I was since it can neither do 00:13:54
I thought I was since it can neither do anything nor not do anything then it 00:13:54
anything nor not do anything then it 00:13:57
anything nor not do anything then it doesn't exist you realize it for the 00:13:57
doesn't exist you realize it for the 00:13:59
doesn't exist you realize it for the abstraction that it is that's the 00:13:59
abstraction that it is that's the 00:14:02
abstraction that it is that's the practical experiment it's very 00:14:02
practical experiment it's very 00:14:04
practical experiment it's very frustrating and why is it frustrating 00:14:04
frustrating and why is it frustrating 00:14:07
frustrating and why is it frustrating you made it frustrating by swallowing 00:14:07
you made it frustrating by swallowing 00:14:13
you made it frustrating by swallowing the teachers advice which he knew you'd 00:14:13
the teachers advice which he knew you'd 00:14:15
the teachers advice which he knew you'd fall for and you were trying to do what 00:14:15
fall for and you were trying to do what 00:14:18
fall for and you were trying to do what the preachers tell you to make yourself 00:14:18
the preachers tell you to make yourself 00:14:20
the preachers tell you to make yourself unselfish by either an active course or 00:14:20
unselfish by either an active course or 00:14:25
unselfish by either an active course or a passive course and neither of them 00:14:25
a passive course and neither of them 00:14:27
a passive course and neither of them work because they are both redundant 00:14:27
work because they are both redundant 00:14:29
work because they are both redundant there is no real self no real ego and 00:14:29
there is no real self no real ego and 00:14:34
there is no real self no real ego and then of course when that's find out 00:14:34
then of course when that's find out 00:14:36
then of course when that's find out everybody has a good laugh so that is a 00:14:36
everybody has a good laugh so that is a 00:14:39
everybody has a good laugh so that is a kind of a spirit in spirituality in 00:14:39
kind of a spirit in spirituality in 00:14:42
kind of a spirit in spirituality in religion which is really rather rare I 00:14:42
religion which is really rather rare I 00:14:45
religion which is really rather rare I think this is the is the feature of Zen 00:14:45
which is attractive to most Westerners 00:14:50
which is attractive to most Westerners 00:14:53
which is attractive to most Westerners on the one hand it's extreme directness 00:14:53
on the one hand it's extreme directness 00:14:56
on the one hand it's extreme directness and on the other it's human 00:14:56
so it's very difficult although a few 00:15:03
so it's very difficult although a few 00:15:06
so it's very difficult although a few people have achieved it to be Zen and to 00:15:06
people have achieved it to be Zen and to 00:15:09
people have achieved it to be Zen and to be stuffy because it is essentially an 00:15:09
be stuffy because it is essentially an 00:15:15
be stuffy because it is essentially an unstopping process a way of getting rid 00:15:15
unstopping process a way of getting rid 00:15:20
unstopping process a way of getting rid of I I think we have in our contemporary 00:15:20
of I I think we have in our contemporary 00:15:23
of I I think we have in our contemporary American slang some very wonderful words 00:15:23
American slang some very wonderful words 00:15:25
American slang some very wonderful words such as hang up almost exact translation 00:15:25
such as hang up almost exact translation 00:15:28
such as hang up almost exact translation of what Buddhists mean by a cliche or 00:15:28
of what Buddhists mean by a cliche or 00:15:31
of what Buddhists mean by a cliche or worldly attachment see when you talk 00:15:31
worldly attachment see when you talk 00:15:35
worldly attachment see when you talk about worldly attachments to Christians 00:15:35
about worldly attachments to Christians 00:15:37
about worldly attachments to Christians they think it means enjoying your food 00:15:37
they think it means enjoying your food 00:15:40
they think it means enjoying your food and liking sex and having a beautiful 00:15:40
and liking sex and having a beautiful 00:15:44
and liking sex and having a beautiful car or something like that 00:15:44
car or something like that 00:15:46
car or something like that that's what they call worldly 00:15:46
that's what they call worldly 00:15:47
that's what they call worldly attachments now in Buddhism all those 00:15:47
attachments now in Buddhism all those 00:15:50
attachments now in Buddhism all those things could be worldly attachments or 00:15:50
things could be worldly attachments or 00:15:52
things could be worldly attachments or pleasure but aren't necessarily so it 00:15:52
pleasure but aren't necessarily so it 00:15:55
pleasure but aren't necessarily so it depends if you are hung up on it and to 00:15:55
depends if you are hung up on it and to 00:15:59
depends if you are hung up on it and to be hung up means to be in a dither 00:15:59
be hung up means to be in a dither 00:16:01
be hung up means to be in a dither in a state where around you were 00:16:01
in a state where around you were 00:16:04
in a state where around you were hesitate not knowing wish I go this way 00:16:04
hesitate not knowing wish I go this way 00:16:07
hesitate not knowing wish I go this way or that way 00:16:07
or that way 00:16:07
or that way see that's a hang-up and so the the 00:16:07
see that's a hang-up and so the the 00:16:11
see that's a hang-up and so the the tactics of a Zen teacher are to put all 00:16:11
tactics of a Zen teacher are to put all 00:16:14
tactics of a Zen teacher are to put all his des students constantly into hang up 00:16:14
his des students constantly into hang up 00:16:16
his des students constantly into hang up situations to challenge them by such a 00:16:16
situations to challenge them by such a 00:16:22
situations to challenge them by such a procedure as this you're in a 00:16:22
procedure as this you're in a 00:16:24
procedure as this you're in a conversation you've just been introduced 00:16:24
conversation you've just been introduced 00:16:25
conversation you've just been introduced to the teacher this is how do you do 00:16:25
to the teacher this is how do you do 00:16:28
to the teacher this is how do you do where have you come from oh I came from 00:16:28
where have you come from oh I came from 00:16:31
where have you come from oh I came from Tokyo and where did you go to school 00:16:31
Tokyo and where did you go to school 00:16:34
Tokyo and where did you go to school well I was at the University of Tokyo 00:16:34
well I was at the University of Tokyo 00:16:36
well I was at the University of Tokyo for a while why is my hand so much like 00:16:36
for a while why is my hand so much like 00:16:38
for a while why is my hand so much like the Buddha's hand dead silence see 00:16:38
the Buddha's hand dead silence see 00:16:41
the Buddha's hand dead silence see suddenly slips into this question which 00:16:41
suddenly slips into this question which 00:16:44
suddenly slips into this question which non classes the student now so the art 00:16:44
non classes the student now so the art 00:16:49
non classes the student now so the art of non plussing is this is part of the 00:16:49
of non plussing is this is part of the 00:16:51
of non plussing is this is part of the whole technique of the teacher and your 00:16:51
whole technique of the teacher and your 00:16:54
whole technique of the teacher and your problem is to get out of being 00:16:54
problem is to get out of being 00:16:57
problem is to get out of being nonplussed and to be able to do that you 00:16:57
nonplussed and to be able to do that you 00:17:03
nonplussed and to be able to do that you have to be able to act without ego let's 00:17:03
have to be able to act without ego let's 00:17:06
have to be able to act without ego let's to say without choice without 00:17:06
to say without choice without 00:17:08
to say without choice without deliberation now to act without 00:17:08
deliberation now to act without 00:17:10
deliberation now to act without deliberation is - all right thinking 00:17:10
deliberation is - all right thinking 00:17:13
deliberation is - all right thinking people very foolish thing to do 00:17:13
people very foolish thing to do 00:17:16
people very foolish thing to do we say look before you leap we also say 00:17:16
we say look before you leap we also say 00:17:19
we say look before you leap we also say he who hesitates is lost now you see 00:17:19
he who hesitates is lost now you see 00:17:28
he who hesitates is lost now you see what we're getting down to here really 00:17:28
what we're getting down to here really 00:17:30
what we're getting down to here really seriously is that the the Zen method is 00:17:30
seriously is that the the Zen method is 00:17:36
seriously is that the the Zen method is a way of teaching people to get with 00:17:36
a way of teaching people to get with 00:17:40
a way of teaching people to get with themselves in the larger sense of self 00:17:40
themselves in the larger sense of self 00:17:43
themselves in the larger sense of self than the ego and that is shall I say to 00:17:43
than the ego and that is shall I say to 00:17:47
than the ego and that is shall I say to have faith in yourself in that largest 00:17:47
have faith in yourself in that largest 00:17:49
have faith in yourself in that largest sense if your brain in your nervous 00:17:49
sense if your brain in your nervous 00:17:51
sense if your brain in your nervous system is the most fabulous computer 00:17:51
system is the most fabulous computer 00:17:55
system is the most fabulous computer which you had no hand whatever in 00:17:55
which you had no hand whatever in 00:17:57
which you had no hand whatever in constructing from the standpoint of 00:17:57
constructing from the standpoint of 00:17:59
constructing from the standpoint of conscious ego if but it is you you you 00:17:59
conscious ego if but it is you you you 00:18:04
conscious ego if but it is you you you should certainly learn to trust it but 00:18:04
should certainly learn to trust it but 00:18:07
should certainly learn to trust it but we're all brought up not to trust 00:18:07
we're all brought up not to trust 00:18:08
we're all brought up not to trust yourself and therefore for us brought up 00:18:08
yourself and therefore for us brought up 00:18:12
yourself and therefore for us brought up in that way it's a very dangerous thing 00:18:12
in that way it's a very dangerous thing 00:18:14
in that way it's a very dangerous thing to trust yourself to rashly and 00:18:14
to trust yourself to rashly and 00:18:17
to trust yourself to rashly and therefore to learn how to do it we have 00:18:17
therefore to learn how to do it we have 00:18:19
therefore to learn how to do it we have to learn in protected circumstances so 00:18:19
to learn in protected circumstances so 00:18:23
to learn in protected circumstances so the the Zen school provides protected 00:18:23
the the Zen school provides protected 00:18:25
the the Zen school provides protected circumstances in which we can behave in 00:18:25
circumstances in which we can behave in 00:18:31
circumstances in which we can behave in unexpected ways or we can try out 00:18:31
unexpected ways or we can try out 00:18:33
unexpected ways or we can try out spontaneous behavior everybody around 00:18:33
spontaneous behavior everybody around 00:18:38
spontaneous behavior everybody around there understands that some very odd 00:18:38
there understands that some very odd 00:18:39
there understands that some very odd things may happen but just because this 00:18:39
things may happen but just because this 00:18:43
things may happen but just because this is understood though there's no problem 00:18:43
is understood though there's no problem 00:18:45
is understood though there's no problem about them so all those Zen stories that 00:18:45
about them so all those Zen stories that 00:18:49
about them so all those Zen stories that we read in laugh over because they seem 00:18:49
we read in laugh over because they seem 00:18:51
we read in laugh over because they seem so idiotic our stories in which the 00:18:51
so idiotic our stories in which the 00:18:55
so idiotic our stories in which the teacher hangs up the student and the 00:18:55
teacher hangs up the student and the 00:19:00
teacher hangs up the student and the student does or doesn't get out of the 00:19:00
student does or doesn't get out of the 00:19:01
student does or doesn't get out of the hanger if he can come on 00:19:01
hanger if he can come on 00:19:04
hanger if he can come on within sort of instant but not hurried 00:19:04
within sort of instant but not hurried 00:19:06
within sort of instant but not hurried response to the challenge that means his 00:19:06
response to the challenge that means his 00:19:10
response to the challenge that means his psychic energy is flowing unobstructed 00:19:10
psychic energy is flowing unobstructed 00:19:11
psychic energy is flowing unobstructed Lee the whirlpool is just working 00:19:11
Lee the whirlpool is just working 00:19:15
Lee the whirlpool is just working beautifully and the energy is flowing 00:19:15
beautifully and the energy is flowing 00:19:16
beautifully and the energy is flowing right through it but on the other hand 00:19:16
right through it but on the other hand 00:19:19
right through it but on the other hand if he's hung up he means he's in a state 00:19:19
if he's hung up he means he's in a state 00:19:23
if he's hung up he means he's in a state of insecurity he is afraid that if he 00:19:23
of insecurity he is afraid that if he 00:19:26
of insecurity he is afraid that if he doesn't choose the right response to the 00:19:26
doesn't choose the right response to the 00:19:28
doesn't choose the right response to the situation 00:19:28
situation 00:19:28
situation he may be in serious danger danger maybe 00:19:28
he may be in serious danger danger maybe 00:19:31
he may be in serious danger danger maybe of disapproval by the teacher or of 00:19:31
of disapproval by the teacher or of 00:19:34
of disapproval by the teacher or of actually risking his life in some way 00:19:34
actually risking his life in some way 00:19:37
actually risking his life in some way or you know as we just say saying the 00:19:37
or you know as we just say saying the 00:19:39
or you know as we just say saying the wrong thing but the secret is of course 00:19:39
to respond instantly in some way if he 00:19:47
to respond instantly in some way if he 00:19:54
to respond instantly in some way if he says why is my hand so much like the 00:19:54
says why is my hand so much like the 00:19:55
says why is my hand so much like the Buddha's hand you might slap it or you 00:19:55
Buddha's hand you might slap it or you 00:19:59
Buddha's hand you might slap it or you might just shake hands with him or you 00:19:59
might just shake hands with him or you 00:20:03
might just shake hands with him or you might put a penny in his palm or you 00:20:03
might put a penny in his palm or you 00:20:06
might put a penny in his palm or you might spit on I might kiss it but 00:20:06
might spit on I might kiss it but 00:20:10
might spit on I might kiss it but immediately that's the answer 00:20:10
immediately that's the answer 00:20:11
immediately that's the answer now sometimes he will feel that you're 00:20:11
now sometimes he will feel that you're 00:20:14
now sometimes he will feel that you're not really skillful at this that you're 00:20:14
not really skillful at this that you're 00:20:17
not really skillful at this that you're your spontaneous answer is inappropriate 00:20:17
your spontaneous answer is inappropriate 00:20:19
your spontaneous answer is inappropriate or that it's a contrived spontaneous 00:20:19
or that it's a contrived spontaneous 00:20:22
or that it's a contrived spontaneous answer you get to the point where you 00:20:22
answer you get to the point where you 00:20:25
answer you get to the point where you can detect the spirit in which it's done 00:20:25
can detect the spirit in which it's done 00:20:27
can detect the spirit in which it's done very easily all sorts of cues give it to 00:20:27
very easily all sorts of cues give it to 00:20:30
very easily all sorts of cues give it to you and therefore he rejects it let's 00:20:30
you and therefore he rejects it let's 00:20:33
you and therefore he rejects it let's try again because you cannot give that 00:20:33
try again because you cannot give that 00:20:37
try again because you cannot give that sort of answer until you come to the 00:20:37
sort of answer until you come to the 00:20:39
sort of answer until you come to the point that you get to when you learn to 00:20:39
point that you get to when you learn to 00:20:40
point that you get to when you learn to ride a bicycle you remember when you try 00:20:40
ride a bicycle you remember when you try 00:20:42
ride a bicycle you remember when you try to learn to ride a bicycle you get to 00:20:42
to learn to ride a bicycle you get to 00:20:43
to learn to ride a bicycle you get to the point where you know that you're 00:20:43
the point where you know that you're 00:20:45
the point where you know that you're gonna be the one damn stupid child who 00:20:45
gonna be the one damn stupid child who 00:20:47
gonna be the one damn stupid child who will never learn to ride a bus I handed 00:20:47
will never learn to ride a bus I handed 00:20:50
will never learn to ride a bus I handed that minute suddenly you find it's doing 00:20:50
that minute suddenly you find it's doing 00:20:53
that minute suddenly you find it's doing it how is it the same with learning to 00:20:53
it how is it the same with learning to 00:20:57
it how is it the same with learning to swim 00:20:57
swim 00:20:59
swim well those all those knacks are just 00:20:59
well those all those knacks are just 00:21:03
well those all those knacks are just like the study of Zen so you will insert 00:21:03
like the study of Zen so you will insert 00:21:06
like the study of Zen so you will insert study of Zen get to the point where you 00:21:06
study of Zen get to the point where you 00:21:08
study of Zen get to the point where you know you're going to do one eternally 00:21:08
know you're going to do one eternally 00:21:10
know you're going to do one eternally stupid student who never never will get 00:21:10
stupid student who never never will get 00:21:12
stupid student who never never will get through that corn that's a Zen problem 00:21:12
through that corn that's a Zen problem 00:21:16
through that corn that's a Zen problem in Japanese word go on like what is the 00:21:16
in Japanese word go on like what is the 00:21:20
in Japanese word go on like what is the sound of one hand there's a KO on and 00:21:20
sound of one hand there's a KO on and 00:21:22
sound of one hand there's a KO on and out of that intense frustration there 00:21:22
out of that intense frustration there 00:21:27
out of that intense frustration there occurs the transforming experience 00:21:27
occurs the transforming experience 00:21:28
occurs the transforming experience because it is that intense frustration 00:21:28
because it is that intense frustration 00:21:30
because it is that intense frustration that reveals to you in an undeniable 00:21:30
that reveals to you in an undeniable 00:21:33
that reveals to you in an undeniable immediate sensuous way the frustration 00:21:33
immediate sensuous way the frustration 00:21:36
immediate sensuous way the frustration of discovering that what you thought you 00:21:36
of discovering that what you thought you 00:21:38
of discovering that what you thought you were all along isn't really there at all 00:21:38
were all along isn't really there at all 00:21:42
were all along isn't really there at all you see didn't do you remember that I 00:21:42
you see didn't do you remember that I 00:21:43
you see didn't do you remember that I described the state in which you 00:21:43
described the state in which you 00:21:45
described the state in which you discover that your actions are the 00:21:45
discover that your actions are the 00:21:48
discover that your actions are the actions of the environment and what the 00:21:48
actions of the environment and what the 00:21:50
actions of the environment and what the environments doing is what you are doing 00:21:50
environments doing is what you are doing 00:21:52
environments doing is what you are doing and that both of these are true because 00:21:52
and that both of these are true because 00:21:54
and that both of these are true because it's all one process and when you're so 00:21:54
it's all one process and when you're so 00:21:57
it's all one process and when you're so used to thinking about it the other way 00:21:57
used to thinking about it the other way 00:21:58
used to thinking about it the other way you get into a feeling that being that 00:21:58
you get into a feeling that being that 00:22:00
you get into a feeling that being that way it's it's frustrating it's like the 00:22:00
way it's it's frustrating it's like the 00:22:03
way it's it's frustrating it's like the experience of them talking into a 00:22:03
experience of them talking into a 00:22:05
experience of them talking into a microphone and then hearing your own 00:22:05
microphone and then hearing your own 00:22:07
microphone and then hearing your own voice a split second later and you start 00:22:07
voice a split second later and you start 00:22:12
voice a split second later and you start doing this and this thing starts talking 00:22:12
doing this and this thing starts talking 00:22:14
doing this and this thing starts talking and then suddenly you find yourself 00:22:14
and then suddenly you find yourself 00:22:15
and then suddenly you find yourself waiting for it to go on it's very 00:22:15
waiting for it to go on it's very 00:22:20
waiting for it to go on it's very frustrating but of course it's you've 00:22:20
frustrating but of course it's you've 00:22:23
frustrating but of course it's you've got to go on talking it won't it won't 00:22:23
got to go on talking it won't it won't 00:22:25
got to go on talking it won't it won't work without you doing it although it 00:22:25
work without you doing it although it 00:22:27
work without you doing it although it sounds it's coming from somewhere else 00:22:27
sounds it's coming from somewhere else 00:22:29
sounds it's coming from somewhere else well it's just like that this feeling 00:22:29
well it's just like that this feeling 00:22:32
well it's just like that this feeling I'm describing so you think this is why 00:22:32
I'm describing so you think this is why 00:22:36
I'm describing so you think this is why a lot of people get into trouble with 00:22:36
a lot of people get into trouble with 00:22:37
a lot of people get into trouble with psychedelic chemicals they get into this 00:22:37
psychedelic chemicals they get into this 00:22:40
psychedelic chemicals they get into this state and when they suddenly find that 00:22:40
state and when they suddenly find that 00:22:43
state and when they suddenly find that it's all one process they begin to worry 00:22:43
it's all one process they begin to worry 00:22:45
it's all one process they begin to worry now who's responsible am I responsible 00:22:45
now who's responsible am I responsible 00:22:50
now who's responsible am I responsible for my act but I'm not doing them is it 00:22:50
for my act but I'm not doing them is it 00:22:55
for my act but I'm not doing them is it responsible so that I can say well it 00:22:55
responsible so that I can say well it 00:22:57
responsible so that I can say well it wasn't my fault then you suddenly see 00:22:57
wasn't my fault then you suddenly see 00:23:00
wasn't my fault then you suddenly see that you can't divide it from you but 00:23:00
that you can't divide it from you but 00:23:03
that you can't divide it from you but since you don't feel in the ordinary old 00:23:03
since you don't feel in the ordinary old 00:23:05
since you don't feel in the ordinary old way you feel that well now how do I know 00:23:05
way you feel that well now how do I know 00:23:09
way you feel that well now how do I know that I'll still speak the English 00:23:09
that I'll still speak the English 00:23:10
that I'll still speak the English language or now we'll remember how to do 00:23:10
language or now we'll remember how to do 00:23:12
language or now we'll remember how to do it 10 seconds from now because if it all 00:23:12
it 10 seconds from now because if it all 00:23:17
it 10 seconds from now because if it all depends on something that's not under my 00:23:17
depends on something that's not under my 00:23:18
depends on something that's not under my control I don't know that it will 00:23:18
control I don't know that it will 00:23:19
control I don't know that it will remember English or might I commit a 00:23:19
remember English or might I commit a 00:23:24
remember English or might I commit a murder 00:23:24
murder 00:23:24
murder supposing I suddenly commit a murder how 00:23:24
supposing I suddenly commit a murder how 00:23:28
supposing I suddenly commit a murder how can I trust myself not to commit a 00:23:28
can I trust myself not to commit a 00:23:29
can I trust myself not to commit a murder because there's no one in charge 00:23:29
murder because there's no one in charge 00:23:32
murder because there's no one in charge but you find that it's really perfectly 00:23:32
but you find that it's really perfectly 00:23:38
but you find that it's really perfectly easy to go ahead and remember what 00:23:38
easy to go ahead and remember what 00:23:39
easy to go ahead and remember what English is and to act in an absolute 00:23:40
English is and to act in an absolute 00:23:42
English is and to act in an absolute disability a but when people don't see 00:23:42
disability a but when people don't see 00:23:45
disability a but when people don't see that they get panicky and panic in the 00:23:45
that they get panicky and panic in the 00:23:50
that they get panicky and panic in the state builds up and builds up and builds 00:23:50
state builds up and builds up and builds 00:23:52
state builds up and builds up and builds up and builds up 00:23:52
up and builds up 00:23:53
up and builds up most appalling vicious surface but on 00:23:53
most appalling vicious surface but on 00:23:56
most appalling vicious surface but on the other hand if you get into this new 00:23:56
the other hand if you get into this new 00:24:01
the other hand if you get into this new situation and just go ahead you find it 00:24:01
situation and just go ahead you find it 00:24:05
situation and just go ahead you find it works beautifully and that this is why 00:24:05
works beautifully and that this is why 00:24:08
works beautifully and that this is why the Zen poet speaks of drawing water and 00:24:08
the Zen poet speaks of drawing water and 00:24:12
the Zen poet speaks of drawing water and carrying fuel as a miraculous activity I 00:24:12
carrying fuel as a miraculous activity I 00:24:15
carrying fuel as a miraculous activity I walk on foot and yet I'm riding on the 00:24:15
walk on foot and yet I'm riding on the 00:24:17
walk on foot and yet I'm riding on the back of an office empty handed 00:24:17
back of an office empty handed 00:24:20
back of an office empty handed and yet a spade is in my hand when I 00:24:20
and yet a spade is in my hand when I 00:24:22
and yet a spade is in my hand when I crossed the bridge the bridge flows and 00:24:22
crossed the bridge the bridge flows and 00:24:24
crossed the bridge the bridge flows and the water is still that's the feeling 00:24:24
the water is still that's the feeling 00:24:27
the water is still that's the feeling see empty handed I go in yet a spade is 00:24:27
see empty handed I go in yet a spade is 00:24:31
see empty handed I go in yet a spade is in mine how would you know your hand was 00:24:31
in mine how would you know your hand was 00:24:34
in mine how would you know your hand was empty and this you've seen it with a 00:24:34
empty and this you've seen it with a 00:24:35
empty and this you've seen it with a spade and if you're always seen a spade 00:24:35
spade and if you're always seen a spade 00:24:38
spade and if you're always seen a spade in a hand you would think that Spade was 00:24:38
in a hand you would think that Spade was 00:24:40
in a hand you would think that Spade was an extension of the hand like a finger 00:24:40
an extension of the hand like a finger 00:24:41
an extension of the hand like a finger so in order to know what empty-handed 00:24:41
so in order to know what empty-handed 00:24:43
so in order to know what empty-handed news is you must know what full 00:24:43
news is you must know what full 00:24:46
news is you must know what full handedness is therefore a spade in the 00:24:46
handedness is therefore a spade in the 00:24:48
handedness is therefore a spade in the hand makes possible the realization of 00:24:48
hand makes possible the realization of 00:24:51
hand makes possible the realization of an empty hand and vice versa so in the 00:24:51
an empty hand and vice versa so in the 00:24:54
an empty hand and vice versa so in the same way the realization of something 00:24:54
same way the realization of something 00:24:56
same way the realization of something other makes possible the realization of 00:24:56
other makes possible the realization of 00:24:59
other makes possible the realization of what you call you so you can't know what 00:24:59
what you call you so you can't know what 00:25:04
what you call you so you can't know what you mean by you unless there is the 00:25:04
you mean by you unless there is the 00:25:06
you mean by you unless there is the experience of the other then you 00:25:06
experience of the other then you 00:25:08
experience of the other then you suddenly see there for self and other 00:25:08
suddenly see there for self and other 00:25:10
suddenly see there for self and other and all of that implies what you will 00:25:10
and all of that implies what you will 00:25:12
and all of that implies what you will and what you don't will what you want 00:25:12
and what you don't will what you want 00:25:14
and what you don't will what you want and what you don't want is all going 00:25:14
and what you don't want is all going 00:25:15
and what you don't want is all going together like this so it's like when 00:25:15
together like this so it's like when 00:25:22
together like this so it's like when you're driving a car when you move the 00:25:22
you're driving a car when you move the 00:25:25
you're driving a car when you move the steering wheel are you pushing it or 00:25:25
steering wheel are you pushing it or 00:25:26
steering wheel are you pushing it or pulling it let not your left hand know 00:25:26
pulling it let not your left hand know 00:25:28
pulling it let not your left hand know what your right hand do it you are of 00:25:28
what your right hand do it you are of 00:25:30
what your right hand do it you are of course pull pushing it so the same thing 00:25:30
course pull pushing it so the same thing 00:25:33
course pull pushing it so the same thing happens in this state of consciousness 00:25:33
happens in this state of consciousness 00:25:36
happens in this state of consciousness what you ordinarily felt was pushing the 00:25:36
what you ordinarily felt was pushing the 00:25:39
what you ordinarily felt was pushing the world around was it pulling you what you 00:25:39
world around was it pulling you what you 00:25:43
world around was it pulling you what you ordinary felt is the world pushing you 00:25:43
ordinary felt is the world pushing you 00:25:45
ordinary felt is the world pushing you around is you pulling it and you always 00:25:45
around is you pulling it and you always 00:25:47
around is you pulling it and you always suppress one side of the awareness so 00:25:47
suppress one side of the awareness so 00:25:51
suppress one side of the awareness so Zen practice leads to bringing about 00:25:51
Zen practice leads to bringing about 00:25:56
Zen practice leads to bringing about that awareness of polarity between the 00:25:56
that awareness of polarity between the 00:26:00
that awareness of polarity between the organism and the environment 00:26:00
organism and the environment 00:26:02
organism and the environment but getting round the problem the false 00:26:02
but getting round the problem the false 00:26:05
but getting round the problem the false problem of how do I get rid of myself 00:26:05
problem of how do I get rid of myself 00:26:08
problem of how do I get rid of myself how do I transform myself when the I 00:26:08
how do I transform myself when the I 00:26:11
how do I transform myself when the I which I believe myself to be has no 00:26:11
which I believe myself to be has no 00:26:13
which I believe myself to be has no power to transform anything because it's 00:26:13
power to transform anything because it's 00:26:16
power to transform anything because it's a social convention and an abstraction 00:26:16