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now I presume that most of you have had 00:00:01
now I presume that most of you have had 00:00:06
now I presume that most of you have had personal experience of this at some time 00:00:06
personal experience of this at some time 00:00:09
personal experience of this at some time in your lives it's always puzzling to 00:00:09
in your lives it's always puzzling to 00:00:17
in your lives it's always puzzling to children whenever out start on this kick 00:00:17
children whenever out start on this kick 00:00:19
children whenever out start on this kick I know in the Anglican Church they have 00:00:19
I know in the Anglican Church they have 00:00:28
I know in the Anglican Church they have everybody you know says a general 00:00:28
everybody you know says a general 00:00:31
everybody you know says a general confession that the services and 00:00:31
confession that the services and 00:00:32
confession that the services and children can never understand it they 00:00:32
children can never understand it they 00:00:35
children can never understand it they don't know what all these terrible 00:00:35
don't know what all these terrible 00:00:36
don't know what all these terrible things that they're supposed to have 00:00:36
things that they're supposed to have 00:00:37
things that they're supposed to have done are to say almighty and most 00:00:37
done are to say almighty and most 00:00:40
done are to say almighty and most merciful Father we have erred and 00:00:40
merciful Father we have erred and 00:00:42
merciful Father we have erred and strayed from thy ways like lost sheep 00:00:42
strayed from thy ways like lost sheep 00:00:44
strayed from thy ways like lost sheep we have followed too much the devices 00:00:44
we have followed too much the devices 00:00:46
we have followed too much the devices and desires of our own hearts we have 00:00:46
and desires of our own hearts we have 00:00:48
and desires of our own hearts we have offended against thy holy laws we have 00:00:48
offended against thy holy laws we have 00:00:52
offended against thy holy laws we have done those things which we ought not to 00:00:52
done those things which we ought not to 00:00:53
done those things which we ought not to have done and we have left undone those 00:00:53
have done and we have left undone those 00:00:55
have done and we have left undone those things which we also have done and there 00:00:55
things which we also have done and there 00:00:57
things which we also have done and there is no health in us the children think 00:00:57
is no health in us the children think 00:01:01
is no health in us the children think that's once the most amazing thing to 00:01:01
that's once the most amazing thing to 00:01:03
that's once the most amazing thing to say all right 00:01:03
say all right 00:01:06
say all right that awful one they have it the Holy 00:01:06
that awful one they have it the Holy 00:01:09
that awful one they have it the Holy Communion talking about our sins the 00:01:09
Communion talking about our sins the 00:01:15
Communion talking about our sins the remembrance of them is Grievous unto us 00:01:15
remembrance of them is Grievous unto us 00:01:18
remembrance of them is Grievous unto us the burden of them is intolerable and 00:01:18
the burden of them is intolerable and 00:01:21
the burden of them is intolerable and then of course it's in the Catholic 00:01:21
then of course it's in the Catholic 00:01:24
then of course it's in the Catholic Church it's simpler 00:01:24
Church it's simpler 00:01:25
Church it's simpler well they say I confess to God Almighty 00:01:25
well they say I confess to God Almighty 00:01:28
well they say I confess to God Almighty and all the various Saints that I've 00:01:28
and all the various Saints that I've 00:01:30
and all the various Saints that I've sinned exceedingly in thought word and 00:01:30
sinned exceedingly in thought word and 00:01:31
sinned exceedingly in thought word and deed by my fault by my own fault by my 00:01:31
deed by my fault by my own fault by my 00:01:33
deed by my fault by my own fault by my own most grievous fault in Latin Mia 00:01:33
own most grievous fault in Latin Mia 00:01:36
own most grievous fault in Latin Mia culpa Mia culpa mea Maxima culpa the 00:01:36
culpa Mia culpa mea Maxima culpa the 00:01:40
culpa Mia culpa mea Maxima culpa the story is told of an altar boy who didn't 00:01:40
story is told of an altar boy who didn't 00:01:44
story is told of an altar boy who didn't understand laughing always you say me a 00:01:44
understand laughing always you say me a 00:01:45
understand laughing always you say me a cowboy me a cowboy me a Mexican cowboy 00:01:45
but you see first of all there is a 00:01:55
but you see first of all there is a 00:02:02
but you see first of all there is a wonderful security in admitting that 00:02:02
wonderful security in admitting that 00:02:06
wonderful security in admitting that you're wrong then you're sure to be 00:02:06
you're wrong then you're sure to be 00:02:12
you're wrong then you're sure to be right see if you know you're wrong and 00:02:12
right see if you know you're wrong and 00:02:19
right see if you know you're wrong and make a great point of it and if you're 00:02:19
make a great point of it and if you're 00:02:23
make a great point of it and if you're suffering and paying a punishment you 00:02:23
suffering and paying a punishment you 00:02:27
suffering and paying a punishment you see for being wrong then you know it's 00:02:27
see for being wrong then you know it's 00:02:30
see for being wrong then you know it's okay 00:02:30
okay 00:02:31
okay oh I bless the good Lord for my boils 00:02:31
oh I bless the good Lord for my boils 00:02:36
oh I bless the good Lord for my boils for my mental and bodily pains for 00:02:36
for my mental and bodily pains for 00:02:40
for my mental and bodily pains for without them my faith all congeals and 00:02:40
without them my faith all congeals and 00:02:42
without them my faith all congeals and I'm doomed the hell's near ending flames 00:02:42
I'm doomed the hell's near ending flames 00:02:45
I'm doomed the hell's near ending flames Z so the way of the Cross is interpreted 00:02:45
Z so the way of the Cross is interpreted 00:02:50
Z so the way of the Cross is interpreted by many people as this way of life lived 00:02:50
by many people as this way of life lived 00:02:54
by many people as this way of life lived in chronic frustration and I've read 00:02:54
in chronic frustration and I've read 00:03:01
in chronic frustration and I've read many manuals on this the spiritual 00:03:01
many manuals on this the spiritual 00:03:03
many manuals on this the spiritual advice for example they say when you get 00:03:03
advice for example they say when you get 00:03:06
advice for example they say when you get a headache 00:03:06
a headache 00:03:06
a headache don't take aspirin live the pain through 00:03:06
don't take aspirin live the pain through 00:03:10
don't take aspirin live the pain through and offer it to the Lord in union with 00:03:10
and offer it to the Lord in union with 00:03:13
and offer it to the Lord in union with the sacrifice of Christ on the cross 00:03:13
always arrange your life in such a way 00:03:19
always arrange your life in such a way 00:03:22
always arrange your life in such a way that it will be a little difficult 00:03:22
that it will be a little difficult 00:03:24
that it will be a little difficult that's why some people wear a hair shirt 00:03:24
that's why some people wear a hair shirt 00:03:27
that's why some people wear a hair shirt they are always uncomfortable they 00:03:27
they are always uncomfortable they 00:03:29
they are always uncomfortable they always itch and the this this thing that 00:03:29
always itch and the this this thing that 00:03:35
always itch and the this this thing that they do it to keep them going I mean 00:03:35
they do it to keep them going I mean 00:03:37
they do it to keep them going I mean this keeps you alive you know you're 00:03:37
this keeps you alive you know you're 00:03:39
this keeps you alive you know you're there I was in Mexico last August 00:03:39
there I was in Mexico last August 00:03:42
there I was in Mexico last August studying this because I wanted to go 00:03:42
studying this because I wanted to go 00:03:44
studying this because I wanted to go down there and find out why their form 00:03:44
down there and find out why their form 00:03:49
down there and find out why their form of care Catholicism is so agonizing and 00:03:49
of care Catholicism is so agonizing and 00:03:53
of care Catholicism is so agonizing and I even meditated a long time on this in 00:03:53
I even meditated a long time on this in 00:03:58
I even meditated a long time on this in the cathedral at Oaxaca and 00:03:58
here was the main altar no not the main 00:04:02
here was the main altar no not the main 00:04:06
here was the main altar no not the main altar their Chapel whether sacrament is 00:04:06
altar their Chapel whether sacrament is 00:04:09
altar their Chapel whether sacrament is reserved the central figure behind the 00:04:09
reserved the central figure behind the 00:04:11
reserved the central figure behind the altar is a huge crucifix of Christ 00:04:11
altar is a huge crucifix of Christ 00:04:16
altar is a huge crucifix of Christ covered in blood and wounds the sores 00:04:16
covered in blood and wounds the sores 00:04:20
covered in blood and wounds the sores are all muddled you know and then on 00:04:20
are all muddled you know and then on 00:04:23
are all muddled you know and then on either side of the walls facing this 00:04:23
either side of the walls facing this 00:04:25
either side of the walls facing this through great paintings one of Christ 00:04:25
through great paintings one of Christ 00:04:28
through great paintings one of Christ carrying the cross and being mocked and 00:04:28
carrying the cross and being mocked and 00:04:30
carrying the cross and being mocked and scourged and the other of the agony in 00:04:30
scourged and the other of the agony in 00:04:34
scourged and the other of the agony in the Garden of Gethsemane and all around 00:04:34
the Garden of Gethsemane and all around 00:04:36
the Garden of Gethsemane and all around in the scores where they sell bond years 00:04:36
in the scores where they sell bond years 00:04:39
in the scores where they sell bond years early in the neighborhood of the 00:04:39
early in the neighborhood of the 00:04:40
early in the neighborhood of the Cathedral you could buy these agonized 00:04:40
Cathedral you could buy these agonized 00:04:43
Cathedral you could buy these agonized faces of Christ with the crown of thorns 00:04:43
faces of Christ with the crown of thorns 00:04:45
faces of Christ with the crown of thorns and every thorn individually sticking in 00:04:45
and every thorn individually sticking in 00:04:47
and every thorn individually sticking in a little triples of blood the face is 00:04:47
a little triples of blood the face is 00:04:50
a little triples of blood the face is kind of green and ghastly and the people 00:04:50
kind of green and ghastly and the people 00:04:54
kind of green and ghastly and the people thickness they love it they all go 00:04:54
thickness they love it they all go 00:04:57
thickness they love it they all go walking into the Shrine of Our Lady of 00:04:57
walking into the Shrine of Our Lady of 00:05:00
walking into the Shrine of Our Lady of Guadalupe for go for a whole mile on 00:05:00
Guadalupe for go for a whole mile on 00:05:02
Guadalupe for go for a whole mile on their knees you'll see young girls doing 00:05:02
their knees you'll see young girls doing 00:05:04
their knees you'll see young girls doing this no what is this about 00:05:04
well you see some people don't really 00:05:11
well you see some people don't really 00:05:15
well you see some people don't really feel they exist until they are sitting 00:05:15
feel they exist until they are sitting 00:05:17
feel they exist until they are sitting on the point of a thorn let me put it 00:05:17
on the point of a thorn let me put it 00:05:20
on the point of a thorn let me put it that way 00:05:20
that way 00:05:22
that way laia to reality is a measure of pain see 00:05:22
laia to reality is a measure of pain see 00:05:28
laia to reality is a measure of pain see pain in this way of looking at things is 00:05:28
pain in this way of looking at things is 00:05:31
pain in this way of looking at things is the most real thing that there is 00:05:31
the most real thing that there is 00:05:34
the most real thing that there is pleasure the pleasures of this world 00:05:34
pleasure the pleasures of this world 00:05:36
pleasure the pleasures of this world escape would disappear and pass away 00:05:36
escape would disappear and pass away 00:05:38
escape would disappear and pass away there's nothing to cling to so don't go 00:05:38
there's nothing to cling to so don't go 00:05:41
there's nothing to cling to so don't go after pleasure my dear friends that's 00:05:41
after pleasure my dear friends that's 00:05:44
after pleasure my dear friends that's awful that's a deceit because the real 00:05:44
awful that's a deceit because the real 00:05:46
awful that's a deceit because the real thing in life is pain and so what you do 00:05:46
thing in life is pain and so what you do 00:05:49
thing in life is pain and so what you do is you train yourself from childhood to 00:05:49
is you train yourself from childhood to 00:05:52
is you train yourself from childhood to deal with pain we were brought up in a 00:05:52
deal with pain we were brought up in a 00:05:56
deal with pain we were brought up in a school system where it was simply 00:05:56
school system where it was simply 00:05:58
school system where it was simply axiomatic that suffering builds 00:05:58
axiomatic that suffering builds 00:06:00
axiomatic that suffering builds character 00:06:00
character 00:06:00
character so therefore anytime you inflicted pain 00:06:00
so therefore anytime you inflicted pain 00:06:03
so therefore anytime you inflicted pain in on anybody you were perfectly 00:06:03
in on anybody you were perfectly 00:06:05
in on anybody you were perfectly justified in your own conscience because 00:06:05
justified in your own conscience because 00:06:07
justified in your own conscience because you were doing him a favor 00:06:07
you were doing him a favor 00:06:08
you were doing him a favor you were building his character for him 00:06:08
you were building his character for him 00:06:11
you were building his character for him doing good it it out on her head and 00:06:11
doing good it it out on her head and 00:06:14
doing good it it out on her head and house 00:06:14
house 00:06:15
house vanity and and so this is based on this 00:06:15
vanity and and so this is based on this 00:06:28
vanity and and so this is based on this philosophy of pain is reality is the 00:06:28
philosophy of pain is reality is the 00:06:35
philosophy of pain is reality is the ultimate penitential philosophy of going 00:06:35
ultimate penitential philosophy of going 00:06:39
ultimate penitential philosophy of going down down down into the most awful I am 00:06:39
down down down into the most awful I am 00:06:44
down down down into the most awful I am wrong see I'm a mistake I am responsible 00:06:44
wrong see I'm a mistake I am responsible 00:06:50
wrong see I'm a mistake I am responsible for this mistake therefore I ought to 00:06:51
for this mistake therefore I ought to 00:06:53
for this mistake therefore I ought to suffer and I go right into that state of 00:06:53
suffer and I go right into that state of 00:06:56
suffer and I go right into that state of mind and if I've got guts encourage I'll 00:06:56
mind and if I've got guts encourage I'll 00:07:03
mind and if I've got guts encourage I'll go as far into it as possible and what 00:07:03
go as far into it as possible and what 00:07:07
go as far into it as possible and what will I find out at the end 00:07:07
now if you go far enough the trouble is 00:07:18
now if you go far enough the trouble is 00:07:23
now if you go far enough the trouble is a lot of people don't and they stay 00:07:23
a lot of people don't and they stay 00:07:26
a lot of people don't and they stay around mineral Mandolin about their sins 00:07:26
around mineral Mandolin about their sins 00:07:29
around mineral Mandolin about their sins and all that was our sort of disgusting 00:07:29
and all that was our sort of disgusting 00:07:32
and all that was our sort of disgusting and they never really get down to it 00:07:32
and they never really get down to it 00:07:35
and they never really get down to it they never find out them what I'll call 00:07:35
they never find out them what I'll call 00:07:41
they never find out them what I'll call for the moment the hidden motivation 00:07:41
for the moment the hidden motivation 00:07:43
for the moment the hidden motivation behind all this behind self renunciation 00:07:43
behind all this behind self renunciation 00:07:47
behind all this behind self renunciation behind wallowing in the reality of pain 00:07:47
behind wallowing in the reality of pain 00:07:54
behind wallowing in the reality of pain they don't see that it's phony because 00:07:54
nothing can be more egotistical than 00:08:05
nothing can be more egotistical than 00:08:09
nothing can be more egotistical than true repentance as I pointed out you're 00:08:09
true repentance as I pointed out you're 00:08:14
true repentance as I pointed out you're safe 00:08:14
safe 00:08:15
safe when you're repentant enough therefore 00:08:15
when you're repentant enough therefore 00:08:19
when you're repentant enough therefore you conceal for yourself temporarily 00:08:19
you conceal for yourself temporarily 00:08:24
you conceal for yourself temporarily what an egotist you are but if you 00:08:24
what an egotist you are but if you 00:08:28
what an egotist you are but if you really get down to the bottom of this 00:08:28
really get down to the bottom of this 00:08:30
really get down to the bottom of this thing as some of the Christian saints 00:08:30
thing as some of the Christian saints 00:08:32
thing as some of the Christian saints have done and find out what that 00:08:32
have done and find out what that 00:08:34
have done and find out what that repentance is all about and you suddenly 00:08:34
repentance is all about and you suddenly 00:08:36
repentance is all about and you suddenly see why it's dear old sin all over again 00:08:36
see why it's dear old sin all over again 00:08:41
see why it's dear old sin all over again what I thought was good was as a matter 00:08:41
what I thought was good was as a matter 00:08:44
what I thought was good was as a matter of fact evil it was the same self 00:08:44
of fact evil it was the same self 00:08:46
of fact evil it was the same self seeking in self righteousness and in a 00:08:46
seeking in self righteousness and in a 00:08:48
seeking in self righteousness and in a radical pride and irreducible rascality 00:08:48
radical pride and irreducible rascality 00:08:51
radical pride and irreducible rascality which the Hebrews call the yet Sahara 00:08:51
which the Hebrews call the yet Sahara 00:08:55
which the Hebrews call the yet Sahara which means the evil inclination they 00:08:55
which means the evil inclination they 00:08:59
which means the evil inclination they say that the evil inclination was 00:08:59
say that the evil inclination was 00:09:01
say that the evil inclination was created by the Lord God and probably the 00:09:01
created by the Lord God and probably the 00:09:04
created by the Lord God and probably the Lord God has a yes IRR himself that the 00:09:04
Lord God has a yes IRR himself that the 00:09:09
Lord God has a yes IRR himself that the Lord has his own element of irreducible 00:09:09
Lord has his own element of irreducible 00:09:13
Lord has his own element of irreducible rascality and that is of course what you 00:09:13
rascality and that is of course what you 00:09:16
rascality and that is of course what you might call the dark side the left hand 00:09:16
might call the dark side the left hand 00:09:17
might call the dark side the left hand of God the left hand that doesn't know 00:09:17
of God the left hand that doesn't know 00:09:21
of God the left hand that doesn't know what the right hand do is how does that 00:09:21
what the right hand do is how does that 00:09:26
what the right hand do is how does that mustn't be let out that's the secret 00:09:26
mustn't be let out that's the secret 00:09:28
mustn't be let out that's the secret see if 00:09:28
see if 00:09:30
see if the cosmos is of the fundamental pattern 00:09:30
the cosmos is of the fundamental pattern 00:09:33
the cosmos is of the fundamental pattern of hide-and-seek 00:09:34
of hide-and-seek 00:09:35
of hide-and-seek then when Hyde turns up and it's the 00:09:35
then when Hyde turns up and it's the 00:09:38
then when Hyde turns up and it's the time for hide to happen then darkness 00:09:38
time for hide to happen then darkness 00:09:43
time for hide to happen then darkness has its day hide in the dark but when 00:09:43
has its day hide in the dark but when 00:09:48
has its day hide in the dark but when it's time for seek then life has its day 00:09:48
it's time for seek then life has its day 00:09:51
it's time for seek then life has its day and we find out what was hidden in the 00:09:51
and we find out what was hidden in the 00:09:53
and we find out what was hidden in the dark under the right hand suddenly 00:09:53
dark under the right hand suddenly 00:09:54
dark under the right hand suddenly discovers what the left hand is doing 00:09:54
and first it shocked what that what is 00:09:58
and first it shocked what that what is 00:10:04
and first it shocked what that what is that by the way what is the fundamental 00:10:04
that by the way what is the fundamental 00:10:08
that by the way what is the fundamental problem the thing you really mustn't do 00:10:08
Freud said it for sex but because he 00:10:15
Freud said it for sex but because he 00:10:19
Freud said it for sex but because he said that you see we've recovered from 00:10:19
said that you see we've recovered from 00:10:22
said that you see we've recovered from the epoch BF before Freud and the apoc 00:10:22
the epoch BF before Freud and the apoc 00:10:26
the epoch BF before Freud and the apoc AF are very different sex isn't the 00:10:26
AF are very different sex isn't the 00:10:32
AF are very different sex isn't the taboo maybe it's incest why is incest 00:10:32
taboo maybe it's incest why is incest 00:10:36
taboo maybe it's incest why is incest taboo it's getting kind of close to home 00:10:36
taboo it's getting kind of close to home 00:10:41
taboo it's getting kind of close to home going back to mama 00:10:41
think back about not going back in the 00:10:45
think back about not going back in the 00:10:48
think back about not going back in the ordinary way it's going back as an adult 00:10:48
ordinary way it's going back as an adult 00:10:50
ordinary way it's going back as an adult not as a baby and you mustn't do that 00:10:50
not as a baby and you mustn't do that 00:10:53
not as a baby and you mustn't do that because why because this is simply a 00:10:53
because why because this is simply a 00:10:57
because why because this is simply a biological analog of the great table 00:10:57
biological analog of the great table 00:11:02
biological analog of the great table just to discover who you really are 00:11:02
just to discover who you really are 00:11:06
just to discover who you really are going back to big papa 00:11:06
and that that's all but that's what is 00:11:11
and that that's all but that's what is 00:11:17
and that that's all but that's what is discovered when you discover you are a 00:11:17
discovered when you discover you are a 00:11:19
discovered when you discover you are a phony you see what is a phony a phony is 00:11:19
phony you see what is a phony a phony is 00:11:22
phony you see what is a phony a phony is a mask and the masks used as I've told 00:11:22
a mask and the masks used as I've told 00:11:28
a mask and the masks used as I've told most of you in classical drama were 00:11:28
most of you in classical drama were 00:11:30
most of you in classical drama were megaphones they had mouthpieces so that 00:11:30
megaphones they had mouthpieces so that 00:11:36
megaphones they had mouthpieces so that the voice would be projected in an 00:11:36
the voice would be projected in an 00:11:37
the voice would be projected in an open-air theatre so we get the phone 00:11:37
and the mask was the persona that's the 00:11:42
and the mask was the persona that's the 00:11:45
and the mask was the persona that's the Latin for that through which the sound 00:11:45
Latin for that through which the sound 00:11:48
Latin for that through which the sound passes so the persona is the mask the 00:11:48
passes so the persona is the mask the 00:11:51
passes so the persona is the mask the phony so to discover that you are a 00:11:51
phony so to discover that you are a 00:11:57
phony so to discover that you are a phony through and through and through 00:11:57
phony through and through and through 00:11:59
phony through and through and through is to discover that you're a big act 00:11:59
is to discover that you're a big act 00:12:01
is to discover that you're a big act that you're a game and when you discover 00:12:01
that you're a game and when you discover 00:12:06
that you're a game and when you discover that then you wake up to find out who's 00:12:06