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and he looks with these things and by 00:00:00

and he looks with these things and by 00:00:02

and he looks with these things and by that's great 00:00:02

that's great 00:00:04

that's great do it again and so in this way there's a 00:00:04

do it again and so in this way there's a 00:00:09

do it again and so in this way there's a Zen poem which says you may want to ask 00:00:09

Zen poem which says you may want to ask 00:00:13

Zen poem which says you may want to ask where the flowers come from but even the 00:00:13

where the flowers come from but even the 00:00:15

where the flowers come from but even the god of spring doesn't know and another 00:00:15

god of spring doesn't know and another 00:00:18

god of spring doesn't know and another says planting flowers to which the 00:00:18

says planting flowers to which the 00:00:20

says planting flowers to which the butterflies come Bodhidharma says I 00:00:20

butterflies come Bodhidharma says I 00:00:23

butterflies come Bodhidharma says I don't know so there is this curious 00:00:23

don't know so there is this curious 00:00:29

don't know so there is this curious thing in all what I would call vital 00:00:29

thing in all what I would call vital 00:00:33

thing in all what I would call vital knowledge living knowledge that it's 00:00:33

knowledge living knowledge that it's 00:00:39

knowledge living knowledge that it's always a mystery to itself life is a 00:00:39

always a mystery to itself life is a 00:00:42

always a mystery to itself life is a mystery to itself for the same reason 00:00:42

mystery to itself for the same reason 00:00:45

mystery to itself for the same reason you see there's a Zen poem which says it 00:00:45

you see there's a Zen poem which says it 00:00:50

you see there's a Zen poem which says it is like a sword that cuts but does not 00:00:50

is like a sword that cuts but does not 00:00:53

is like a sword that cuts but does not cut itself like an eye that sees but 00:00:53

cut itself like an eye that sees but 00:00:55

cut itself like an eye that sees but does not see itself so in this way what 00:00:55

does not see itself so in this way what 00:01:01

does not see itself so in this way what there is fundamentally a basic reality 00:01:01

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knows itself and doesn't know itself if 00:01:07

knows itself and doesn't know itself if 00:01:11

knows itself and doesn't know itself if it did know itself thoroughly it would 00:01:11

it did know itself thoroughly it would 00:01:13

it did know itself thoroughly it would stop like playing games if you know the 00:01:13

stop like playing games if you know the 00:01:21

stop like playing games if you know the outcome of a game for sure there's no 00:01:21

outcome of a game for sure there's no 00:01:23

outcome of a game for sure there's no point playing it so you know when master 00:01:23

point playing it so you know when master 00:01:27

point playing it so you know when master chess players sit down and it becomes 00:01:27

chess players sit down and it becomes 00:01:28

chess players sit down and it becomes apparent although there are still many 00:01:28

apparent although there are still many 00:01:30

apparent although there are still many pieces on the board that one of them is 00:01:30

pieces on the board that one of them is 00:01:31

pieces on the board that one of them is going to mate in three moves they 00:01:31

going to mate in three moves they 00:01:35

going to mate in three moves they abandon the game because they know the 00:01:35

abandon the game because they know the 00:01:37

abandon the game because they know the outcome if you knew the future perfectly 00:01:37

outcome if you knew the future perfectly 00:01:40

outcome if you knew the future perfectly if you knew everything you're gonna do 00:01:40

if you knew everything you're gonna do 00:01:43

if you knew everything you're gonna do right up to the day of your death should 00:01:43

right up to the day of your death should 00:01:46

right up to the day of your death should say let's check out on this game they've 00:01:46

say let's check out on this game they've 00:01:49

say let's check out on this game they've commit suicide and start another life 00:01:49

commit suicide and start another life 00:01:51

commit suicide and start another life because the no point living through what 00:01:51

because the no point living through what 00:01:53

because the no point living through what is known completely of course you can't 00:01:53

is known completely of course you can't 00:01:57

is known completely of course you can't very well live through what is unknown 00:01:57

very well live through what is unknown 00:01:58

very well live through what is unknown completely there must be some light the 00:01:58

completely there must be some light the 00:02:01

completely there must be some light the total light annihilates itself so then 00:02:01

total light annihilates itself so then 00:02:07

total light annihilates itself so then you see there is no prescription in no 00:02:07

you see there is no prescription in no 00:02:11

you see there is no prescription in no infallible technique for 00:02:11

infallible technique for 00:02:13

infallible technique for teaching anybody music although there 00:02:13

teaching anybody music although there 00:02:15

teaching anybody music although there are music skills and there is no 00:02:15

are music skills and there is no 00:02:18

are music skills and there is no likewise no infallible technique for 00:02:18

likewise no infallible technique for 00:02:20

likewise no infallible technique for teaching anybody Zen although indeed 00:02:20

teaching anybody Zen although indeed 00:02:21

teaching anybody Zen although indeed there are Zen schools and sometimes the 00:02:21

there are Zen schools and sometimes the 00:02:25

there are Zen schools and sometimes the teacher who is many years experience 00:02:25

teacher who is many years experience 00:02:26

teacher who is many years experience begins to get disillusioned not the 00:02:26

begins to get disillusioned not the 00:02:29

begins to get disillusioned not the point of all these schools what a point 00:02:29

point of all these schools what a point 00:02:31

point of all these schools what a point of teaching music 00:02:31

of teaching music 00:02:32

of teaching music you can't teach music you could only 00:02:32

you can't teach music you could only 00:02:35

you can't teach music you could only pass it on from one person to another by 00:02:36

pass it on from one person to another by 00:02:37

pass it on from one person to another by osmosis sure there's a technique you can 00:02:37

osmosis sure there's a technique you can 00:02:40

osmosis sure there's a technique you can learn how to read you can learn how to 00:02:40

learn how to read you can learn how to 00:02:42

learn how to read you can learn how to put your fingers on the banjo or 00:02:42

put your fingers on the banjo or 00:02:43

put your fingers on the banjo or something but the real thing what to do 00:02:43

something but the real thing what to do 00:02:47

something but the real thing what to do with that technique what to say with it 00:02:47

with that technique what to say with it 00:02:49

with that technique what to say with it you can't teach that 00:02:49

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so one assumes then that a person who is 00:02:53

so one assumes then that a person who is 00:02:56

so one assumes then that a person who is sufficiently motivated who is fond of 00:02:56

sufficiently motivated who is fond of 00:02:59

sufficiently motivated who is fond of music will learn the technique because 00:02:59

music will learn the technique because 00:03:03

music will learn the technique because he wants to get so where he can handle 00:03:03

he wants to get so where he can handle 00:03:04

he wants to get so where he can handle the instruments and you suppose likewise 00:03:04

the instruments and you suppose likewise 00:03:07

the instruments and you suppose likewise that a person who is really interested 00:03:07

that a person who is really interested 00:03:09

that a person who is really interested in self-knowledge after all Zen is only 00:03:09

in self-knowledge after all Zen is only 00:03:14

in self-knowledge after all Zen is only a certain way of self knowledge will 00:03:14

a certain way of self knowledge will 00:03:16

a certain way of self knowledge will master certain techniques because he's 00:03:16

master certain techniques because he's 00:03:18

master certain techniques because he's interested but you see all schools and 00:03:18

interested but you see all schools and 00:03:22

interested but you see all schools and all systems begin to make techniques and 00:03:22

all systems begin to make techniques and 00:03:24

all systems begin to make techniques and end in themselves because technique is 00:03:24

end in themselves because technique is 00:03:26

end in themselves because technique is the only thing you can teach you can't 00:03:26

the only thing you can teach you can't 00:03:29

the only thing you can teach you can't teach the thing now you see we get 00:03:29

teach the thing now you see we get 00:03:33

teach the thing now you see we get scared when we think of that they say do 00:03:33

scared when we think of that they say do 00:03:34

scared when we think of that they say do you mean to say I might be that person 00:03:34

you mean to say I might be that person 00:03:36

you mean to say I might be that person who gets hung up in this and all I'm 00:03:36

who gets hung up in this and all I'm 00:03:38

who gets hung up in this and all I'm gonna get out of this school is 00:03:38

gonna get out of this school is 00:03:39

gonna get out of this school is technique somehow I might be that dumb 00:03:39

technique somehow I might be that dumb 00:03:41

technique somehow I might be that dumb bunny who just doesn't get the thing 00:03:42

bunny who just doesn't get the thing 00:03:44

bunny who just doesn't get the thing that's an awful thought isn't it so 00:03:44

that's an awful thought isn't it so 00:03:47

that's an awful thought isn't it so that's drilled into us in from childhood 00:03:47

that's drilled into us in from childhood 00:03:49

that's drilled into us in from childhood is that for example it comes out and 00:03:49

is that for example it comes out and 00:03:51

is that for example it comes out and toilet training 00:03:51

toilet training 00:03:52

toilet training I remember we have all of medical and 00:03:52

I remember we have all of medical and 00:03:56

I remember we have all of medical and nursing authorities when I was a small 00:03:56

nursing authorities when I was a small 00:03:58

nursing authorities when I was a small boy and tremendous constipation phobia 00:03:58

boy and tremendous constipation phobia 00:04:01

boy and tremendous constipation phobia and they believed that you could suffer 00:04:01

and they believed that you could suffer 00:04:06

and they believed that you could suffer from poisoning you know from retaining 00:04:06

from poisoning you know from retaining 00:04:10

from poisoning you know from retaining things too long and so they were always 00:04:10

things too long and so they were always 00:04:12

things too long and so they were always always agitating questioning every day 00:04:12

always agitating questioning every day 00:04:15

always agitating questioning every day as to whether you had been so you built 00:04:15

as to whether you had been so you built 00:04:20

as to whether you had been so you built up conversely a terror that you might 00:04:20

up conversely a terror that you might 00:04:22

up conversely a terror that you might not be able to 00:04:22

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and this in its turn built up tensions 00:04:26

and this in its turn built up tensions 00:04:31

and this in its turn built up tensions that were actually constipating so 00:04:31

that were actually constipating so 00:04:35

that were actually constipating so everybody was constantly being filled 00:04:35

everybody was constantly being filled 00:04:37

everybody was constantly being filled with cascara sagrada california syrup of 00:04:37

with cascara sagrada california syrup of 00:04:41

with cascara sagrada california syrup of figs castor oil Bahama shelf stuff every 00:04:41

figs castor oil Bahama shelf stuff every 00:04:44

figs castor oil Bahama shelf stuff every description which upset the natural so 00:04:44

description which upset the natural so 00:04:50

description which upset the natural so in the same way you might think 00:04:50

in the same way you might think 00:04:53

in the same way you might think I'm going to practice meditations or 00:04:53

I'm going to practice meditations or 00:04:57

I'm going to practice meditations or something and study them but will I be 00:04:57

something and study them but will I be 00:05:00

something and study them but will I be the poor fool who never gets the point 00:05:00

the poor fool who never gets the point 00:05:03

the poor fool who never gets the point if you could put it in Christian terms 00:05:03

if you could put it in Christian terms 00:05:08

if you could put it in Christian terms and say well I will be this as good as I 00:05:08

and say well I will be this as good as I 00:05:12

and say well I will be this as good as I can be but perhaps I will be the one who 00:05:12

can be but perhaps I will be the one who 00:05:14

can be but perhaps I will be the one who God will never give any real grace to 00:05:14

God will never give any real grace to 00:05:16

God will never give any real grace to cuz I haven't been picked a house and 00:05:16

cuz I haven't been picked a house and 00:05:18

cuz I haven't been picked a house and will I get this grace there's no way you 00:05:18

will I get this grace there's no way you 00:05:20

will I get this grace there's no way you see that you can wangle grace you can't 00:05:20

see that you can wangle grace you can't 00:05:22

see that you can wangle grace you can't compel the Lord to give it the same way 00:05:22

compel the Lord to give it the same way 00:05:25

compel the Lord to give it the same way you can't compel Satori to happen so you 00:05:25

you can't compel Satori to happen so you 00:05:27

you can't compel Satori to happen so you think maybe it won't happen to me 00:05:27

think maybe it won't happen to me 00:05:30

think maybe it won't happen to me so that's that's possible you see so 00:05:30

so that's that's possible you see so 00:05:35

so that's that's possible you see so what do you do about that well the 00:05:35

what do you do about that well the 00:05:37

what do you do about that well the teachers have all sorts of things to say 00:05:37

teachers have all sorts of things to say 00:05:38

teachers have all sorts of things to say about what to do about it they say well 00:05:38

about what to do about it they say well 00:05:40

about what to do about it they say well no no just we just forget about it 00:05:40

no no just we just forget about it 00:05:43

no no just we just forget about it doesn't matter if you don't get it 00:05:43

doesn't matter if you don't get it 00:05:45

doesn't matter if you don't get it not getting it is getting it you see say 00:05:45

not getting it is getting it you see say 00:05:47

not getting it is getting it you see say we use this paradox all the time not to 00:05:47

we use this paradox all the time not to 00:05:50

we use this paradox all the time not to have it really to accept that you don't 00:05:50

have it really to accept that you don't 00:05:52

have it really to accept that you don't have it that's getting it that's the 00:05:52

have it that's getting it that's the 00:05:54

have it that's getting it that's the real point see but that's a gimmick see 00:05:54

real point see but that's a gimmick see 00:06:00

real point see but that's a gimmick see I'm going to try as hard as I can not to 00:06:00

I'm going to try as hard as I can not to 00:06:02

I'm going to try as hard as I can not to try to get it see but you're really 00:06:02

try to get it see but you're really 00:06:06

try to get it see but you're really playing a game see you know that this is 00:06:06

playing a game see you know that this is 00:06:08

playing a game see you know that this is the I've had laughed up the infallible 00:06:08

the I've had laughed up the infallible 00:06:09

the I've had laughed up the infallible method 00:06:09

method 00:06:10

method there must be an infallible method 00:06:10

there must be an infallible method 00:06:12

there must be an infallible method because if there isn't a method we are 00:06:12

because if there isn't a method we are 00:06:14

because if there isn't a method we are lost we are up the creek 00:06:14

lost we are up the creek 00:06:15

lost we are up the creek why control 00:06:15

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but you see when you find out there 00:06:22

but you see when you find out there 00:06:25

but you see when you find out there isn't a message there isn't a positive 00:06:25

isn't a message there isn't a positive 00:06:29

isn't a message there isn't a positive method and there isn't a negative method 00:06:29

method and there isn't a negative method 00:06:33

method and there isn't a negative method what are you going to do you can't do 00:06:33

what are you going to do you can't do 00:06:36

what are you going to do you can't do something and you can't do nothing you 00:06:36

something and you can't do nothing you 00:06:43

something and you can't do nothing you can't let go of the thing because after 00:06:43

can't let go of the thing because after 00:06:45

can't let go of the thing because after all you got curious about it and this is 00:06:45

all you got curious about it and this is 00:06:48

all you got curious about it and this is what's called having swallowed a ball of 00:06:48

what's called having swallowed a ball of 00:06:52

what's called having swallowed a ball of hot iron 00:06:52

hot iron 00:06:54

hot iron you can't gulp it down and you can't 00:06:54

you can't gulp it down and you can't 00:06:57

you can't gulp it down and you can't spit it out and then there's a trap to 00:06:57

spit it out and then there's a trap to 00:07:04

spit it out and then there's a trap to get you into that state you could very 00:07:04

get you into that state you could very 00:07:08

get you into that state you could very careful how you get mixed up with the 00:07:08

careful how you get mixed up with the 00:07:09

careful how you get mixed up with the thing because you know you may end up in 00:07:09

thing because you know you may end up in 00:07:13

thing because you know you may end up in a padded cells laughing that way that is 00:07:13

a padded cells laughing that way that is 00:07:24

a padded cells laughing that way that is the is the the quandary it is and that's 00:07:24

the is the the quandary it is and that's 00:07:27

the is the the quandary it is and that's why everything opposite things can be 00:07:27

why everything opposite things can be 00:07:30

why everything opposite things can be said about them that's why on the one 00:07:30

said about them that's why on the one 00:07:33

said about them that's why on the one hand it can be said rightly that it's a 00:07:33

hand it can be said rightly that it's a 00:07:36

hand it can be said rightly that it's a strong discipline why on the other hand 00:07:36

strong discipline why on the other hand 00:07:39

strong discipline why on the other hand it can be said rightly that it's not a 00:07:39

it can be said rightly that it's not a 00:07:40

it can be said rightly that it's not a discipline at all it isn't that it's 00:07:40

discipline at all it isn't that it's 00:07:47

discipline at all it isn't that it's just a mixture of things then isn't sort 00:07:47

just a mixture of things then isn't sort 00:07:50

just a mixture of things then isn't sort of partly discipline and partly 00:07:50

of partly discipline and partly 00:07:52

of partly discipline and partly spontaneity whatever is said about it 00:07:52

spontaneity whatever is said about it 00:07:54

spontaneity whatever is said about it can be said of all of it and therefore 00:07:54

can be said of all of it and therefore 00:07:59

can be said of all of it and therefore it seems to be paradoxical and one 00:07:59

it seems to be paradoxical and one 00:08:05

it seems to be paradoxical and one always can get into difficulty by 00:08:05

always can get into difficulty by 00:08:08

always can get into difficulty by neglecting some side of it and saying 00:08:08

neglecting some side of it and saying 00:08:11

neglecting some side of it and saying well that doesn't matter sometimes it's 00:08:11

well that doesn't matter sometimes it's 00:08:14

well that doesn't matter sometimes it's true that it doesn't matter sometimes 00:08:14

true that it doesn't matter sometimes 00:08:16

true that it doesn't matter sometimes it's not true it may be just the thing 00:08:16

it's not true it may be just the thing 00:08:18

it's not true it may be just the thing that you need beside you say that 00:08:18

that you need beside you say that 00:08:20

that you need beside you say that doesn't matter so there's no way what 00:08:20

doesn't matter so there's no way what 00:08:24

doesn't matter so there's no way what I'm trying to say is there's no way of 00:08:24

I'm trying to say is there's no way of 00:08:25

I'm trying to say is there's no way of putting your finger on this thing 00:08:25

putting your finger on this thing 00:08:27

putting your finger on this thing there's no way of nailing it down and 00:08:27

there's no way of nailing it down and 00:08:29

there's no way of nailing it down and that's the whole point 00:08:29

that's the whole point 00:08:32

that's the whole point because you see fundamentally then makes 00:08:32

because you see fundamentally then makes 00:08:35

because you see fundamentally then makes you do what you 00:08:35

you do what you 00:08:36

you do what you doing all the time only it makes you do 00:08:36

doing all the time only it makes you do 00:08:38

doing all the time only it makes you do it consistently there supposing you're 00:08:38

it consistently there supposing you're 00:08:40

it consistently there supposing you're sitting in your pad itself and you 00:08:40

sitting in your pad itself and you 00:08:43

sitting in your pad itself and you suddenly found out this little game see 00:08:43

suddenly found out this little game see 00:08:46

suddenly found out this little game see you've got your one hand class by the 00:08:46

you've got your one hand class by the 00:08:50

you've got your one hand class by the other and your thumb sticking out here 00:08:50

other and your thumb sticking out here 00:08:51

other and your thumb sticking out here at the top and you look at that family 00:08:51

at the top and you look at that family 00:08:54

at the top and you look at that family look at that books then try to catch it 00:08:54

look at that books then try to catch it 00:08:58

look at that books then try to catch it no nope 00:08:58

no nope 00:09:00

no nope here we go nope oh come see who that's 00:09:00

here we go nope oh come see who that's 00:09:10

here we go nope oh come see who that's what we're doing 00:09:10

what we're doing 00:09:11

what we're doing see here's me 00:09:11

see here's me 00:09:14

see here's me and here's knowing about me nope I want 00:09:14

and here's knowing about me nope I want 00:09:18

and here's knowing about me nope I want to try and control myself you see I want 00:09:18

to try and control myself you see I want 00:09:20

to try and control myself you see I want to get a hold of that thing with me when 00:09:20

to get a hold of that thing with me when 00:09:22

to get a hold of that thing with me when I get hold of it I can control it then I 00:09:22

I get hold of it I can control it then I 00:09:23

I get hold of it I can control it then I then I'm gonna be all right 00:09:23

then I'm gonna be all right 00:09:25

then I'm gonna be all right did he get hold of it and so we're doing 00:09:25

did he get hold of it and so we're doing 00:09:31

did he get hold of it and so we're doing that and as a result we have astounding 00:09:31

that and as a result we have astounding 00:09:40

that and as a result we have astounding illusions now we have the illusion 00:09:40

illusions now we have the illusion 00:09:44

illusions now we have the illusion because it's drilled into us through 00:09:44

because it's drilled into us through 00:09:45

because it's drilled into us through acculturation but each one of us is a 00:09:45

acculturation but each one of us is a 00:09:48

acculturation but each one of us is a separate ego separate Center of 00:09:48

separate ego separate Center of 00:09:52

separate ego separate Center of awareness little living help of some 00:09:52

awareness little living help of some 00:09:55

awareness little living help of some kind that lives in a strange world 00:09:55

kind that lives in a strange world 00:09:59

kind that lives in a strange world scares the hell out of us well what 00:09:59

scares the hell out of us well what 00:10:03

scares the hell out of us well what makes you think this you see how did you 00:10:03

makes you think this you see how did you 00:10:05

makes you think this you see how did you ever come to in that that you are 00:10:05

ever come to in that that you are 00:10:09

ever come to in that that you are somehow disconnected out there 00:10:09

somehow disconnected out there 00:10:13

somehow disconnected out there surrounded by this world in which you're 00:10:13

surrounded by this world in which you're 00:10:15

surrounded by this world in which you're a stranger see it's really obvious that 00:10:15

a stranger see it's really obvious that 00:10:21

a stranger see it's really obvious that that isn't so only it's not obvious to 00:10:21

that isn't so only it's not obvious to 00:10:25

that isn't so only it's not obvious to most people it's really objects that you 00:10:25

most people it's really objects that you 00:10:32

most people it's really objects that you the real you deep in is this thing that 00:10:32

the real you deep in is this thing that 00:10:37

the real you deep in is this thing that is reality 00:10:37

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and that you are having a profoundly 00:10:42

and that you are having a profoundly 00:10:49

and that you are having a profoundly interesting game pretending you're not 00:10:49

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and you are going through all kinds of 00:10:57

and you are going through all kinds of 00:11:00

and you are going through all kinds of amazing mazes to play this lame and 00:11:00

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mostly running in terror from your own 00:11:10

mostly running in terror from your own 00:11:13

mostly running in terror from your own shadow jumping at the sound of your own 00:11:13

shadow jumping at the sound of your own 00:11:16

shadow jumping at the sound of your own heart beating having goose pimples rise 00:11:16

heart beating having goose pimples rise 00:11:20

heart beating having goose pimples rise on your back of the sound of your own 00:11:20

on your back of the sound of your own 00:11:22

on your back of the sound of your own footsteps Wow and you are always 00:11:22

footsteps Wow and you are always 00:11:27

footsteps Wow and you are always exploring into this world and finding it 00:11:27

exploring into this world and finding it 00:11:30

exploring into this world and finding it gets stranger and stranger as you look 00:11:30

gets stranger and stranger as you look 00:11:32

gets stranger and stranger as you look out into the infinitude of space where 00:11:32

out into the infinitude of space where 00:11:36

out into the infinitude of space where you thought everything was pretty 00:11:36

you thought everything was pretty 00:11:38

you thought everything was pretty rational even though there were these 00:11:38

rational even though there were these 00:11:39

rational even though there were these other galaxies that were millions of 00:11:39

other galaxies that were millions of 00:11:41

other galaxies that were millions of light years away and you thought well as 00:11:41

light years away and you thought well as 00:11:43

light years away and you thought well as just about galaxies out there suddenly 00:11:43

just about galaxies out there suddenly 00:11:45

just about galaxies out there suddenly something will occur and nobody 00:11:45

something will occur and nobody 00:11:48

something will occur and nobody understands what a quasar is they defy 00:11:48

understands what a quasar is they defy 00:11:50

understands what a quasar is they defy all the things that we thought we knew 00:11:50

all the things that we thought we knew 00:11:53

all the things that we thought we knew we get stranger and stranger and the 00:11:53

we get stranger and stranger and the 00:11:56

we get stranger and stranger and the more you probe inwardly you know you 00:11:56

more you probe inwardly you know you 00:11:59

more you probe inwardly you know you should lift the skin off your own 00:11:59

should lift the skin off your own 00:12:00

should lift the skin off your own stomach and take a look inside what a 00:12:00

stomach and take a look inside what a 00:12:02

stomach and take a look inside what a weird well that is they recover that 00:12:02

weird well that is they recover that 00:12:04

weird well that is they recover that everything creaking I feel like I feel 00:12:04

everything creaking I feel like I feel 00:12:07

everything creaking I feel like I feel when I see spiders or am something get 00:12:07

when I see spiders or am something get 00:12:09

when I see spiders or am something get the shivers and it screams from but you 00:12:09

the shivers and it screams from but you 00:12:13

the shivers and it screams from but you see what you're getting the creeps app 00:12:13

see what you're getting the creeps app 00:12:17

see what you're getting the creeps app is yourself and an unfamiliar aspect the 00:12:17

is yourself and an unfamiliar aspect the 00:12:21

is yourself and an unfamiliar aspect the unknown side because last comes 00:12:21

unknown side because last comes 00:12:26

unknown side because last comes recognition when you the most far-out 00:12:26

recognition when you the most far-out 00:12:29

recognition when you the most far-out thing the thing that seems to the most 00:12:29

thing the thing that seems to the most 00:12:31

thing the thing that seems to the most totally other as you say why and what a 00:12:31

totally other as you say why and what a 00:12:38

totally other as you say why and what a relief but at the same time what fun to 00:12:38

relief but at the same time what fun to 00:12:45

relief but at the same time what fun to begin all over again 00:12:45